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DON'T YOU THINK LOVE HURTS!!!????!?!?!?

2010-12-07T04:21:00.001-08:00

DON'T YOU THINK LOVE HURTS!!!????!?!?!?

Answer here

Isn't love between men and women, men and men and women and women still love?! Haha

2010-12-07T04:20:00.001-08:00

Isn't love between men and women, men and men and women and women still love?! Haha

Answer here

I like to grab your tengkok, cause I know that''s your weakness. Haha, the only way to stop you from kacau-ing me. :p

2010-10-29T05:45:00.001-07:00

I like to grab your tengkok, cause I know that''s your weakness. Haha, the only way to stop you from kacau-ing me. :p

Answer here

I know you hate that name, even I don't want to hear or see him. Urghh... :/ Hehs

2010-10-20T07:12:00.001-07:00

I know you hate that name, even I don't want to hear or see him. Urghh... :/ Hehs

Answer here

2010-09-27T07:19:00.000-07:00

My brother's new girlfriend, Diana.

I pray for you guys to last.

Neither do I care.

This is my first post after few month. Woah.
Well O level is like less than a month, and here I am, spending lesser time on the net and more times facing books.
One more month and I'm as free as the birds out there. So, yeahh.

Well on last Friday, I was at Downtowneast with my family, getting to kow my brother's girlfriend. Cool, it went out to be awesome, she's nice. I hope they'll last. Just one thing, If she loves my brother, and wants him, then, she'll have to accept my mum, and my whole family, for the who we are.

So, back to my story. Like The test I took on Fb, I'm 93% sad. So yeah, that's me. And the stress of O level is warming me every single day, with mock exams every morning, just ohmygod. I don't know what else I shall say, I'd better leave blogger! Do visit my tumblr if you're free. (:

http://fiqahardour.tumblr.com/

I don't want neither do I need you.

2010-09-20T06:24:00.000-07:00

Moved to Fiqahardour.tumblr.com (:

2010-08-16T08:34:00.000-07:00

Love me for the who I am, you should accept me the way I am, I am you flesh and blood, fyi.

2010-07-26T07:35:00.000-07:00

Since you took the key, the door to my heart is shut, tightly ever. That nothing else could force open. S asked me to open it, but I said I lost the key. But it's with someone who took it. My door is made up of the strongest steel/METAL ever. S said I can see a locksmith and get a new key. But how could? I don't have the original one. S said S could go get it from that person, but I said, I want that person to hold on to the key, I don't want the door to open for others. S said one day , sooner or later someone's gonna hit that door open.. But I don't think anyones strong enough.

Let the key be taken off by that person, it's safer. But one day, I know that person is going to give me back those keys, and I know I have to open the door up. I have to get ready. But am not ready yet.

Please held on to my keys forever.

Rafiqah (:

2010-07-19T07:32:00.000-07:00

The warong with the freaking bridge.

You could clearly see water below you, between those gaps.

This is the bridge that weakened my knees. -_-

Heys.
Last Sunday which was yesterday, my family and I had went to Malaysia. At last long, I had the chance to travel oversea- by car. I was so darn excited to get there. We did shop alot, had so much fun, I didn't want go home. I was like the most excited girl on earth. Haha We even went to this Warong-( malay language for an eating place near villages) . It's like near the sea area, where there is sea foods. The warong is like in the middle of the sea, and we have to like walk on this wooden-plank-bridge. Its like there's gap and I could possibly see the water underneath, and my knees really got very weak I swear. I'm seriously scared of heights and drastic/harsh waters. Haha And when we're eating it's like there's water all around you. Every steps I took, I swear, I almost cried, while the bridge was like just a few metres, and it feels like I'm taking 5-10 mins. But It was very windy indeed, a very peaceful place. You know the cool breeze from the sea, and then it brushed your face and blew your hair, it fades away all my stress. Pheww. Very relaxing.

We stayed there till night, reached Sg around 11pm. I so miss every single thing. I wish I could go there every weekends and SHOP! haha(:

Aites long story, shortened. Till here, Ima have an early sleep today (:
Good night.

2010-07-10T00:27:00.000-07:00

One word I could describe is FUN. I had so much fun which I thought not. Even it's celebrated two days after my birthday, It's still warm and awesome. I got back from the Np trip, the first thing I was to see was ballons at my doorsteps. Haha I was like smiling already. Haha then, everyone came, and the party started. (: Thanks everyone for the fun I had.

I even had much fun with my friends to the NP trip(: I miss all of you, and all the fun we had. (:

But too bad, today my trip to go visit Malaysia is cancelled. Get well soon KakFizah. Ily. (: And then, we can go Msia together with our fams yeaa.

Aites, here's the long story shortened. See ya, gotta do some chores! (:

2010-07-07T08:23:00.000-07:00

A birthday card from my brother. A very sweet note he left me. Makes my tears worst upon reading it this morning. And his present is a hot red puma purse. Im so i love with it.
I would like to thank everone who had flooded me with birthday wishes. It's really so sweet of you guys. To my friends, close friends, and classmates whom sang me a birthday song, my brothers, cousins, aunts, uncles, everyone of you, you made me smile. I was very sad today, I teared all the way to school. My celebrations today had been postponed to Friday as my Aunt is really sick. Get well soon, Ngah. And thanks for all the prezzie, they're cool. I love it.
All of you from Fb, tagged and many more, love you guys.

Looking forward to this Friday.
And I'm so going to overseas this Saturday. Like, atlast. Wohoo! (:

Love you guys, rafiqah. (:

My happiest day ever. Glad to have you guys to set a smile upon me when I'm down(:

Happy 17th Birthday to me. (:

2010-07-05T06:31:00.000-07:00

My sick face. -_-

The bouquet of roses I made with tissue. (:

I had been sick since last Saturday. I woke up and suffered bad sore throat, leading to fever. flu and coughs. I had been suffering this one week, even my taste buds drops, that I'd taste almost everything as tasteless. The first week of school, I was absent on Monday, went to school on Tuesday but went home and was absent again on Wenesday. Now I'm abit better, still with bad flu. Pheww -_- One week of sickness. Well, atleast there's no school today. (:

Well, indeed I can't wait for this Friday, the trip to NP. (:

School tomorrow, Ima off to do some revision for Maths. See ya, take care everyone.

Thanks to my tagged friends and to Shida for the early Birthday messages. Love you all. (:

2010-06-26T08:43:00.000-07:00

Went out with just-mom the other day to say goodbye to mr/mrs stress. Relaxing our mind. Anyway, I just know how I get this sickness, yesterday, My brother and I was doing this d.i.y thing. We sprayed my granddad's wardrobe and some frames, the smell really hurt my chest. Thus I think that's how I got this sore throat.

Anyway, this morning, mom makes me cry hard enough. I've heard of this package travelling to Bali with alot of people and DJs. I told her, shall we go? You know, I miss travelling alot, like some other people, especially to Indonesia. A.Shahril, wished I could follow you and S there. What if you sponsor me? Hehs. You know what mum said: You wait till afew years more, save your own money then, travel as and when/where you like. Wth. Few years? By the time, I am so gonna miss alot of things there. My god, nevermind, I'll wait for the day.

2010-06-26T08:06:00.000-07:00

I was riding home when it suddenly poured like how mak2 jiros pokok bunga, my bike started to jiggle cause the road was flooded at least to half an inch. The traffic was almost halted cause the visibility got quite poor even tho my helmet doesnt have automatic wipers I could tell. *Frowns*

Is at halal botak jones Woodlands, waiting for bacon wrapped chilli dog with two sides of double baked cheese potato and crispy french fries. Amek kau! Actually I was on morning shift suddenly my stomach talk to me," Daddy2, later we go botak jones k?" [Omg, S you ate that much?!?! Gila.]

Im here, it's Rafiqah. Omg, Monday, school is back in town, and holidays is having fun with it's own holiday. It's Left with one final day of fun tomorrow. But too bad, I'm here, Rafiqah staying at home, sick. I woke up this morning with a bad sore throat and had my fever straight away. It was bad, my family members, all got sick, but I'm always the last one. -_-

Im so gonna miss my holidays.
Aites, I need some rest and have to return back this lappy to my bro..
Nights everyone. (:

2010-06-22T04:05:00.000-07:00

I am a pandora box exclusively presented to the people I believe. I have the flair that the clever can see. Some misinterpreted me but I am no snob.
I have a gold laugh that no one can dupe. Signature me as I am a well natured spirit. That is all i am, love.

2010-06-21T10:29:00.000-07:00

Norafizah And Azahari.

190610

My cousin, Kak Fizah got married last Saturday.

Our wishes for them on the book.

I took some of the wed pictures, credits to my cousin. ^
Thanks Abg Shahril for all the pics.(:

Getting all ready with the Henna paintings.

Hardworking boy. Haha :p

My another cousin, the bride's brother.

I think this pic looks scary. Haha

My another cousin, loves to seat and never help haha:p

^(Top left)He's the one who used to act on TV.

We really had fun. The wedding ceremony falls on Saturday. On Friday night, everyone was like gathering under the void deck, it was so cool, a heart warming momment for all families to be reunited. On Saturday, was a very grand day. It's Awesome! My brother even sang to the crowd, I almost joined in to sing, but I changed my mind. Haha. We made wish for our Aunt whose birthday falls on the same day. Indeed, that day I took lots of photos perhaps. I'm so enjoying everything, from singing session, photographs with the bride and grooms, sitting together, and etc. When it's time to go home, I bet I'm the saddest person on this earth. :( You know when you really had fun, before the wed, we had been gathering for the whole week, and then to be separated, it so heart throbbing. But it's okay when I miss EVERYTHING, I have photos to look at(:
So, to Kak Jaja and Abg Azahari, all the best and may you guys last forever. And to Kak jaja get well soon, take good care of your health.

[Kau hilang bila ku tiba, kau datang bila ku kecewa.

Kau pergi dariku, aku jadi gila, sejak kau tiada.

Kau tinggalkanku, aku jaid gila.]

2010-06-16T09:22:00.000-07:00

Hi. So long, I've yet to upaate my blog. I think right now I'm the busiest person on earth. My cousin, Kak Fiza, is getting married this Saturday, so my family and I is very busy helping her family for the preparations. Yesterday night even, we went to Kak Fiza's new house in Pasir Ris to pack up stuffs. Today, earlier in the afternoon, I went to Ikea with Mom, to shop for some stuffs, I really had fun shopping. Than at night, got a call from my uncle and Aunt, and joined them to have dinner outside. Omg, I'm so leading my life happily this few days of holidays. Maybe I'll be going overseas next week or maybe family barbeque. (: I'm so looking for it to it.

OK guys, I gotta go. Nites, take care always guys.

Rafiqah.

Why do dreams came so suddenly, with someone I've never thought/want to be in my dreams, it's so pathetic. When we wish for something to be in our dreams, it would bever come true.

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2010-06-12T07:05:00.000-07:00

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2010-06-12T06:07:00.000-07:00

I'm not sure when is Father's day. So I would like to Wish all fathers all around the world a happy advanced/belated Fathers Day!

Well, sad to say, I've never had the chance to wish my own dad, nor to celebrate it with him, but here is a poem I made specially for him, on how special he is to me. But it's in Malay:

Siapa dirimu usah ditanya

kerana bagiku engkaulah segalanya

meski kau tiada disisi, cintamu dapat ku rasai

jarak yang memisahkan, membuat hati semakin rawan

untuk kau kembali hanyalah satu mimpi

kenangan bersama bermain di bingkai mata

engkaulah insan bergelar Ayah.

Hanya dua tahun kita bersama

begitu singkat waktu dirasa

zahirmu ku tatap dalam gambar

menjadi butir pengubat duka

meski di dunia kita tak dapat bersama

semoga kita disatukan di dalam syurga.

My love for you, will never ever change nor would it fades from my little heart. So are the others in our family, Dad. You're someone who left behind no-ending sorrows, someone who nobody could replace, no substitute for a SPECIAL person like you, you're someone noone could forget. Too bad, nobody gave me the chance to feel your love, to get blessings from you every morning that other child gets, never get to see you smile, never get to hear you laugh, I swear it wasn't easy to grow up to this age without a father's love. It took me courage, even if it hurts, to look at your photos and stuffs. Thanks to my family members, they gave me the will to grow up, especially mum, it was not easy growing up three young kids alone. She's strong, and so am I. Standing strong, wishing to meet you in heaven. Wonder if it would ever be granted. I love you so much, even to say it out that I love you as much as I can, it would never end.

May god bless you,
your one and only daughter,
Rafiqah. Ily.Imy.

2010-06-11T09:04:00.000-07:00

Today, indeed, I end off school early, went back at 1130am with S. Then, I took an hour of nap, and was woke up by my aunt's call. So my mum and me fetch her and we're off to Arab st. We went there to look for clothes, preparation for Hari Raya I guess? Haha. Yesterday, We'd went to JooChiatComplex, I had bought this long dress-like which cost $159. Haha Its damn gorgeous! I don't feel like taking it off since I tried it. So, back to Arab st, we'd walk quite far, we had late afternoon lunch at this restaurant. Walk abit, and cabbed home to aunt's house. (: Went back to my home sweet home at 0730pm.

Well, infocus is over, so it's Holiday!!! Haha Gonna miss all my friends. Really.

And to that hater, I don't know who you are, who scribbled the big 'x' on my canvas board, thanks lots. Why the hell must you do that in the first place. Do I even know you, have we even like communicate to one another, or did I even touch your balls, that you have to do that to me? Gosh, it's been so long someone's yet to get me this so pissed off. Testing me huh? You wouldn't want to see my true colours. If you have the guts to do that, show me yourself. Tell me you're the one who did that? That's bravery. So, if you tell me you don't have the bravery to confess to me, I'll name you a COWARD.

I'll let this out in malay: Inilah orang katakan musuh dalam selimut. Aku tak tau apa yang sudah aku lakukan sampai ada sahaja hamba Allah yang selalu menguji kesabaranku. Aku tak pernah mencari kebencian orang, tapi ada yang membenciku, aku tak pernah kacau orang, tapi orang mengacauku. Apa semua ni? Berapa jauh lagikah aku akan diuji? Sampai bila? Kesabaranku ada batasnya. Aku diam punya diam, semua ingat aku bodoh, pengecut, pandang rendah kat aku, semua pijak kepala aku, hey, tolong eh, sikit pun aku tak takut ah, aku hanya takut pada Tuhan yang satu, bukan kat korang, kau je yang bodoh, tak takut dengan tuhan? berlaku khianat kat insan lain. Jangan nanti sampai aku tunjuk perangai aku pulak. Kepada musuh aku yang bertopeng, lu pergi bertaubat sudah, sebab orang macam kau tak akan mengaku.
May God bless you.

Happy holidays everyone, enjoys! (:

I want be in the DJ pelajar at Ria.sg. (:

You think that's enough for me, K? Once for every month?

2010-06-03T23:13:00.000-07:00

Omg, I had been shopping-spreed this few days, spending 250 bakhs in less than two days. Haha Well, life in holidays? Nahh school sucks with infocus, I'm so lethargic to go.

Yesterday I went to Afiq's house to give him his belated birthday presents. Haha Well, it was fun, then we biked to my Aunt's house at night and chilled there.

Yesterday too, after school, me, Shida and Nab, decided to walk around at TM for quite long. Then I was looking for a present for my cousin's birthday. But instead we got to Toys'r'us and I bought this baby girl for me. Haha It's preety cute, it could talk, laugh, cry, pee and poo too. Hahha well, since she's at home, It has never stop me from smiling. Aww my baby girl, ILY!!! If it's a real baby, I think i'm happier than this. Haha I 've yet to name her.. Hmm what shall I call her ehy? Haha perhaps I bet yesterday S and N saw how obsessed i really am into babies. I was like touching and trying all the babbies there, and they two were like shaking thier heads observing me. Haha Anways, the baby cost 40 bakhs, but when 'somebody' ask, I told that its just 20. Haha. Hees :p

Anxiously wrapping the presents. Haha :p

Haha I made something. I designed this on my head. It's cool though, that's what I thought. Haha Malays called it the 'sanggul' if I'm not mistaken.

This is the gift I bought for A. He preety like it. It's a footballer photo holder, that's his pic that I inserted.

Well, today I didn't turn up for infocus again. Haha I really was overslept. Anway, I would like to thanks Shida and Nab for accompanying me yesterday, I really had fun and all the laughs. Haha We even ate at this foodcourt, where we cracked alot of jokes, It was so damn fun, It's been so long i've yet to laugh like that. And all this while I really miss you guys. Haha

See you guys on Monday!!

Anw I think I still owe u a birthday present.

6 more days and it's 1 months. You think im that strong to baer all this?!

2010-06-02T02:20:00.000-07:00

Well. Hi. Since 28 May, I had been working with my brother at the 2010 Singapore food Expo, with company: Defu. Omg, my first day was like so tiring, you imagine this, coming at 9 AM and ends at 11+pm I'm so wreckless. Well, the first day Alex came. Haha the first time when we saw each other, he said, "eh, why are you working here?" Haha Cause i'm currently attached to working at Wildwildwet. But instead I'm working at other place. Haha. Than this EXPO exhibition, it went for the straight 5 days. My god. Yesterday was my last day, was fun, sad and I didn't at all feel tired! Haha the last few hours was so fun, me and my brother was like yelling and selling everything at the cheapest price, I forgot all about being tired. Than we stayed till like 12+ with our lady boss. Chatted. And went home, and by that time it was at 12.30AM. I slept at 2AM.

And I can't wake up for school today, Haha. Holla, I woke up at 12 PM dude!!! Haha Ok, think Ima just stop and leave.

Going down to downtown East to get some items. Wehee.

Bye!!
Love, Rafiqah. <3

(:

No one can tell anyone what love is, you will simply know it when u feel nothing else.

2010-05-20T08:16:00.000-07:00

This is my brother's friend, Fadly. A new artist. I like his voice though, but he's not that famous, yet? With him, a radio deejay.

This one is awesome!!!. He has a studio at home, and I like the background wall. My brother's friend graffiti-ed for him.

A random pic of him with a singer.

The 4 besties.

I heard that he's currently in the hospital. Had fever after his operations. What a luck. Speedy recovery, brother. (:

2010-05-20T07:49:00.000-07:00

It's heavier than anything else you could tell.
I miss you badly, Grandad. Please come back home.
We use to be there always, for one another. But now, we're apart.
Imy.

Whatevs. :p

Be my PG, will you??

This is what I had as my PM on MSN (currently): Pgpgpgpgpgpgpgpg<3

Then, I saw my brother on MSN too. I receive a chat message from him.

Hairi: 'Seow' (saying me crazy)

Me: What's 'seow' for.

Hairi: pgpgpg.. that's seow la!!

Me: Lols.. hahha -_-

I know, pathetic answer I gave. He once ask me what PG is? I didn't answer. Haha He kept assuming it as something else.

Sorry bro, even I forgot what PG means...

Anyways, about exams, I don't even want to think about it no more. I'm more than dissapointed, of myself! Classes during holidays is at my doorstep, welcome. Yoohoo. And the dragonboat, I'm qualified.. But... Whatever..

Adiosamigos.

Rafs.

2010-05-17T04:43:00.000-07:00

Okay hi I'm active again. Yeaa. Exam is kind off officially ended. Left with English oral alone tomorrow. Hmmph. Today's art was great, perhaps. I left out 1 layout and a colour scheme. Haha. Well a hard work paid off, though, I slept around 2 yesterday. And good luck everyone, Thursday, the great day, getting our result slip. Haha Just looking forward to Art's result. (:

And ohh, hire me as a Malay tuition teacher? Ohmygod. Preety nervous, I'm not exaggerating. Though I scored A2 but I'm not the so professional, man! Ohmy. Cause I don't like kow how to teach, and I can't answer if he asks: why we should use this tense and not he other?
Haha Good luck Rafiqah. (:

Crying for the wrong person is making me sick. All the tears? Swollen eyes? Haha Crap ah Raf!! Promise not me make me cry no more.

2010-05-16T03:02:00.000-07:00

Okay, Wow, I had not been

updating my blog for quite sometime.

Okay, on Mother's day last Sunday

was indeed awesome. Well, I baked a

brownies and cooked some fried

macaronis. Hees. Then, we're off

to my second house.

That's when the fun part comes. I've been

waiting for that very moment.

It's a matter of life and death.

And

fate has decided,

indeed I shall live longer. :)

Thanks God for everything.

So one whole day of mine today,

is "awesome", it's cool, with rain

finally, since Friday tho.

I didn't even like step out

of my house since yesterday,

you know for the sake of

finishing this stupid ART exam

preparatory work. Now I'm at

layout and colour scheme.

Still going on and on and on!!!

So till here everyone. Love ya.

!!!My superman in RED!!! (:

2010-05-06T05:18:00.000-07:00

Please please please PG, I hope it was just a nightmare that came to haunt me for fun, that came to make me smile in the end. But too bad, I pinched myself hard, and I cried, it's painful..

2010-05-06T05:05:00.000-07:00

Ok so here are some pics from TPSS carnival day.

I know it's abit late but I'm just too busy with

exams round the corner.

And I had been going through alot of fun/cool

stuff in my life though exams are here killing me.

haha. Last few days I went to Prawn catching

at pasiris. It was cool and fun though

I didn't manage to catch any, but it taught

me a lesson: to have patience.

Ohh and I had English And Chemistry paper,

and sorry, no hope for chemostry, I shall say.

Hooray,

turning up in school late tomorrow is cool

as I don't have to take any MT papers. :pp

Ok I'm to to study bio.

Nights everyone!

Xoxo

2010-04-23T04:37:00.000-07:00

Sorry. My blog is

under maintenance.

2010-04-22T22:52:00.000-07:00

KARMA

Yes I do believe in them, Karma. Cause I know, what goes around will come around. What you do good, will come back to you, what you do bad is vice versa. Life is like boomerang, whatever you do, it will bounce back upon you. So what do I care with what you did to me now, only god will rebounce it back. He'll do the everything for me, cause I'll not do that to you, cos I believe god is fair. I'll be a gentleman, I won't do anything to hurt anyone, mentally nor physically, nor behind their back..

Heck! Hate me for no reason? so be it, my favourite lovable foe! Sterotype me and do what ever to me, call me whatsoever you could name me, go on, one day, it'll come back to you. Good luck. Ily! (:

Woah, two days of absence from school, makes me feel so lethargic to attend it the next day. Well I'm still down with this leftover cough and flu. Get away soon! :) Yay TGIF!! so happy bout Friday, cos weekends is at the doorstep!! Wohoo. >_>

Happy weekends everyone!! (:

p/s: have to congrat you on this: ur acting's so cool!! you could even act like everythings fine, act like i don't know any lies, act like im so dump, act like you're so innocent. Congrats, you could win the next Grammy award, woah, really. (:

2010-04-20T04:59:00.000-07:00

I had been sick and sick and sick and sick and sick and sick, this will go on.

Well I attended a quarter of day in school yesterday and was fetched by my Brother as I was really sick I can't endure any seconds, if I stayed. I texted him to fetch me. And today indeed, I did'nt attend school, I was down with fever, and those coughs. *coughing* n_n Even the office person in school called me to asked what happened. Haha. Dear God, I wish I were stronger. All this had me nails in my head thus here I am, sick!

Well, no one is to be blamed, I think it's because of the weather, everyone is getting sick here. And , my whole family members are sick. My brother just went to see the doctor earlier and was told he had infections. Omg. Maybe my family have to be quarantined? Haha Perhaps.

And well, I think it's still not too late to talk about this. Last Friday was tremendously Awesome on the sport's day of TPSS. It was so great that its the best sports day ever. Though it rains, shines and rained again, it was so great, the ruby spirit and everything you could mentioned. The 31-legged-race was wonderful. (: The day I will never forget. No wonder last week, I had been looking forward so much to Friday. Haha Since that day, I had sore throat from the shoutings. (: Haha

Oh gosh, and tomorrow will be cramped and thight with two trst in a day- Maths and Biology. Oh my, thst is so whatever. Haha If only I could run away from this.

!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!

Pita Yangsa, taki rusha jakpiber di mibu yang tanya. Kimes ia guhsung kankitnyame. Duphi sihma luper kanrustedi. Lauka taki yangsa rango tu, taki giba tiha taki katde rango tu. Pita lauka taki yangsa rango tu, daa sama taki gaju rusha arbi kan ia giper. (:

2010-04-13T01:41:00.001-07:00

Oh ya! and he also said he had been rejecting around 10. See?!?!?!?

2010-04-13T01:35:00.000-07:00

I have big surprise for all of YOU!!!!

This is from muhammad zulfadhli from my class, I saw this statement of his on FB.

He said: Random people kept adding me on msn. and I kept deleting them if I don't recognise them.

It's PROVEN! It's not only ME who got all the adds. See for yourself.

2010-03-23T03:50:00.000-07:00

I won't be blogging for some reasons. Will be dead for some days. I have some jobs to do. See ya people. Lots of love, Rafiqah.

P/s:I don't want see that movie playing. I hope my eyes were shut.

HuangLi, I need you, and you too K. I need you guys, please be here by my side, I really need, urgently. I need your shoulders. I can't hide it. But I actually don't mean to show it. I'm sorry.
I need space.space.space.space.space. I need to rest.rest.rest.rest.rest.rest

Mum, please return my diary, It's something I can't live without. I f you happen to already read it, please don't question me, you should respect me.

2010-03-20T04:52:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AQILAH!!!!
I LOVE YOU!!

2010-03-20T04:23:00.000-07:00

Hmm. As you can see, that yesterday is the Tampines Secondary School soft launch of the new school. It;s was fun as indeed was loved by everyone. The school were huge, nice and well-built. But my class is in the block that once exist, it's just that they renovated to make it bigger. (Crap, off all many classes, why am I being put in there. Aren't there any other classes?) But it really was a fun day, with the cheers i the hall, welcoming the MRT reps, and the walkabouts. And i'm pretty much delighted, that the commemorative t-shirt will be worn on every Wednesday. Cool, no hardwork to bring ties and all. How I wish everyday is t-shirt day. :P

The school is very huge, I'm much worried if I'll get lost. Haha yesterday itself my classmates were walking. When they were like separated into two (a group infront and another left behind) than, I was like in the middle. I was so busy looking at my camera, the front group were no where to be seen, I turned back and walked, and so were the behind group. Lols. I got worried, and kept walking with a confident-not-lost face. :) And luckily I saw my cousin, walked, and met my friends! They were like, 'Rafiqah!! where did you go?!?!' I replied shamelessly, "I got lost~" Haha And that's when they pulled me to tag to get a photo along. We separated, they left for KFC, some went home, and I went to my aunt's house. What a day!

Thanks PG for holding the lift door open. (:

2010-03-20T03:58:00.000-07:00

That is why I don't feel like leaving the chalet.

Ohh. I'm so sick. I don't know what do I

name my expression now. It's like all mixed up I don't know why. You know I had this problem of identifying which mood to go to when I am like happy, sad, dissapointed and mad at one go. And ended up with a BAD MOOD. That's so bad of me. I'm feeling it now. Trying to calm myself down. I need someone to appear in front of me to make me smile. Omigosh.

Well, left with just one precious Sunday before school is officially open again. Gosh, school is back in town. Atleast it's in Tampines now, but I had it enough of being told that it ends at 3.30pm. Like whatheheck. Irritates me to the max.

Anyway, i'm so missing my holidays. Especially the days at the chalet. The second there, we played the bowling. Well, I'm not shy to say that it's my first time trying it, and I not shy either to say that I scored 54 as an unexperienced player. It's not that bad huh? Haha Then the swimming together, the barbeque, gosh, EVERYTHING indeed!

P/S: I'm so not looking forward to school. I don't want to see you guys, really. I want stay at home, I want to be alone. Leave me, I need an ample time to calm, I need SPACE.. Thank you very much.

2010-03-18T06:40:00.000-07:00

Well, on Saturday, 130310 I bought two little terrapins. Saturday, a very happy day for me! (: Imy dear. Thx for everything.

The shopkeeper told me, they are male and female each, but I have no idea which is which. Haha

That's FiqahPG (: (My favourite)

That's Aisyah-Nas (:

Sorry Aisyah, I don't know why, I love FiqahPG better than aisyah-nas. I know, you've told me to be equal cos they both are my pets and I have to be responsible. Yes I'm aware but Tsk, no humans can be equal.

But I still love them both. (:

2010-03-18T05:44:00.000-07:00

Hadirnya tanpa kusedari
Menggamit kasih cinta bersemi
Hadir cinta insan padaku ini
Anugerah kurniaan Ilahi

Lembut tutur bicaranya
Menarik hatiku untuk mendekatinya
Kesopanannya memikat di hati
Mendamaikan jiwaku yang resah ini

Ya Allah
Jika dia benar untukku
Dekatkanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Jika dia bukan milikku
Damaikanlah hatiku
Dengan ketentuan-Mu

Dialah permata yang dicari
Selama ini baru kutemui
Tapi ku tak pasti rencana Ilahi
Apakah dia kan kumiliki
Tidak sekali dinodai nafsu
Akan kubatasi dengan syariat-Mu
Jika dirinya bukan untukku
Redha hatiku dengan ketentuan-Mu

Had not been updating my blog recently. Well On Sunday-Tuesday, I had gone for a family chalet. Fuhh! I really had fun. Well, pictures to be updated here soon.

And ohh, and Tuesday, I failed to attend at CGH for the blood donation with my bro. I was really dissapointed. Fhhmmm. Maybe some other time.

Shit! Tomorrow is the TPSS opening of the new school ceremony. I need help!! I need to go now, to get all ready. I miss holiday!! And I need more and more holiday man!! I miss the chalet the other day, the so grand house, if only it's mine. Ohh :p

Ok bye2!

2010-03-12T07:39:00.000-08:00

Look, isn't this sweet. They have the same name. cool. Awww.

Happy new weds! To dyn Norahim and wife. Lols. I'm just a fan of him. Bye. :P

2010-03-12T06:25:00.000-08:00

Well, perhaps today is the last day of school in this term. AND the last day of school in TPSS holding school. In deed, when I'm leaving for home, I was very sad. I repeat, VERY. Yes I was. And is still sad that as the time to go home finally came, I was shut to silent. Alot of things were playing in my mind and I was plainly muted. Not a single word blurted out of my mouth. I don't particularly know what is this feeling. And, right, I controlled my feelings, till I got home, hugged a pillow, and finally broke down and cry. I'm so going to miss everything in that school. Oh my god. I can't believe it's all over now. Anyway, I have to move on, those have to be left behind. I'm just scared to look forward. Actually, I know why I'm so sad. 1. maybe because of those sweet, sour memories I had in the school for 2 years, which I obviously can't erase from my mind. 2nd cos the school is the only reason I could stay at my aunt's house to get to see PG. Isit cause of this that I got so carried away. Ohmy. That one part Nabturned at me when in the class. She knows I'm sad, and I know she's sad too. I almost cried but I controlled. I texted Su in the bus, though we were like just next to one another, 'are you sad to leave the school?' She nodded. I replied. 'I am, too.' And tears almost shed~

So I hope the week ahead, my holiday would be fun! But I don't think so cause I'm down with flu and the cough that had just arrived. How the hell am I going to have fun? So my blog will be dead like till Wednesday? Cause I'll be going for a family chalet for 3D2N. (: Gee. I need to smile you know. Can't be sad at all time.

Sorry H. I gave you the wrong info. It's not today.

Anw, tuesday, 1603 will be my most biggest day. Cause during the last day of the chalet, I really wanted to go to CGH for the blood donating event. With my brother to be my guardian, cause I'm below 18 and I need a parent's consent.

I told my bro thru MSN.

miss stalker... says:
Let's donate blood this Tuesday at CGH??

abg_mamat says:
ok
but with who's consent?
you're under 18

miss stalker... says:
you!!! haha
my guardian angel. n_n hahaha

abg_mamat says:
sure can?

miss stalker... says:
can3.
my fren say maybe can.

abg_mamat says:
guardian pharmacy ah

miss stalker... says:
belum try blum tau mahhh.
hahaha!

abg_mamat says:
ur fren who?
doctor?

miss stalker... says:
nurse at cgh hahaha
doctor? lols

That guy ahh. Hmm please go with me, Hairi..Cause mum won't let so. I'm hoping for you... See you there too H. Lets donate together!! yay! :p

I forgot what else I wanted to say here, totally a blank. All shut.
Aite, till here, I guess.

Happy Holiday everyone!! Have fun..
Yours truly, Rafiqah.

p/s: The new school timetable, and school slot sucks. :p

2010-03-05T06:55:00.000-08:00

To dearest Mr.Hanis, I can't resist this, and I have to declare it, if only you could somewhat read my this declaration, the memory of you, everything that has got to do with you (except for one of your pic), is all in my house's rubbish chute. I'm sorry, but its of no use for me to still keep it, something that used to hurt me, that I was half dead 3 years ago. You're just a piece of shit, that I loved like crazy. Haha goodbye.
<3

Wow, one more week to go and its holiday. I just can't wait for it, and I'll have family gathering at chalet. So looking forward to it. And also the entering to our new school. Now that I wished if only the 2 years in bedok, were to past by slower than this.. Oh gosh. I will miss everything.

So today, My friends and I had went to suntec city for the career exhibition thingy. We entered the hall for like only a few minutes, then , me and four other friends decided to get out and walk by ourselves. We walked to alot of places, but didn't get the chance to go Marina barrage. So after the long walk I trained to tamp with N, and the other three, continued their walk to Esplanade and many more. Overall, I had so much fun.

And now i'm exhausted. Ehy wait.. Am I being complacent? I don't know whatsoever. First I failed my Chem test, I got 2/21. Retest: 20/21
Next I failed Bio test, I got 12/25. Retest: 21/25
Third I failed SS test, I got 5/12? Retest: I haven't took it.
I think I was too complacent for passing them all this while?? Whatever, but I know i've never felt like that all this while.

Pineapple, I came, but you were'nt there.
IMY.

Night's everyone. Have a blessed and joyful weekend.

2010-03-01T02:46:00.000-08:00

Okay, so here are just some random pics of me and my loved ones around me always (:

I don't know what to say. There's something I want to say, but everytime as I were to type it out, my mind went blank. I don't know why. Seriously. -_-

!!!!!!

Okay, so I had been going around questioning people, 'why is life so unfair?'. It really is. Even some of my friends, like Su, agreed. But Nab said, I musn't blame god for all this that he'd fated for me. Yea2. Well, but fate hurts, you see. I just can't escape it, from coming my way.

!!!!!!!

So school and everything was alright, smooth-going. Except that I having a bad headache now. But this morning..!!! Hahah.. Got it. Just remembered the story I wanted to tell.

I was in the bus, where I have to sit by a JC chinese guy. Basically, he's on the inner right side of the double-deck bus 28. I don't know why, sitting by his side, made me sit still. I didn't really move, like opening my bag, to listen to my songs or etc. He packed his notes, and close his bags with him clipping his bag with that clip (gosh how do i discribe the clip? you know the one you have to press by the side) So, to cut it short, he was to go down. So as I was giving him way to get out of that seat, Our bag got attach to one another's somehow. I don't know why, I pulled my bag, and so did he, hoping it to entangled. But it didn't. So I was like disclipped mine. But it still seem to attach. So I had to take off all of my string that is connected to the clip, and gave it to him. I hate it that one part when he was like asking me: WHAT DID YOU DO?? iI was like what did you said? Me??? Hello?!?!?! It's him who clipped his bag. somehow, got clipped to mine maybe? Than I replied him intensely, I didn't do anything (Jerk). Than he said "sorry, it's my stop" and he left with my part-of-my-bag-clip-string. Lols

Then, in school, as I was playing the floorball, Somebody used the stick and accidentally she hit my hand with it. And now it's really hurting me, with bruises, somemore!! Arghh it's my bad luck day today. What the heck.

Andandand I wished I could meet that JC guy again. Made him beg on feet and to say sorry and that he would say "yea2 that clip was yours, and i clipped it to yours accidentally or not, by all means. I'm sorry" Hahaha! Cruel me :p

Okay, gotta rest now, and continue revising my SS and bio for a test tomorrow.

See ya, take care people.

!!!!

Looking forward to Wednesday.

2010-02-22T07:02:00.000-08:00

We had the same band. How cool is that?! Lols (:

So today, despite feeling very very very very tired, I had to accompany Aisyah to TM as she wanted to get those badges, as promised. We really had so much fun, we laughed alot and I cracked jokes all the way. Haha (: I had oreo-mc flurry and she had cheezeballz(: Though hours of search, she end up not getting any badges. Lols. But its effort-worth, we had fun after all.

The band on top ^^, my mum and me went to take a stroll at Bugis yesterday, and she bought me the band, and one for Aisyah. (:

After the TM strolls, we headed back to my house, and went out again with my fams on our bike. Cool. We had fun shooping. (: Than Aisyah went home, fetched by her parents. A happy day for me today. (:

A said: K is HOT. N is CUTE.

R said: K is Hot and SEXY. N is CUTE and HOT.

I simply can't help it, A.

If I have the chance, I would come back there, definitely. But you know, I can't.
I just can't. Kita merancang, biar tuhan yang menentukan. If fate made me found out we're near each other actually, one day fate may meet us once more. (:

Okay, and I'm preety tired, leaving now.

Adios :D

2010-02-18T07:17:00.000-08:00

Rafiqah.

2010-02-18T01:08:00.000-08:00

Be my PG..

Today's my Atok's 7th day at CGH.

He has seen to recover? But I know the pain inside him, and those sickness, would never cure.. Atok, just want to let you know, seeing you smile already makes my day. Though you've hurt me ever since THAT day, that you made me feel unappreciated, I STILL LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I know those 3 words would never be said to me.. but I love you still. It's my responsibility to take care of you.. Who else if it's not me..

Ily atok.
[My love towards you, only god knows, cos they're undescriable]

________________________________________

And specially for YOU, I wrote this in Chinese language..

(sorry for those non-malay readers, find it out yourself xp)

Qi Shi Wo Zhi Shi Zai Zuo Mong, Ni Bu Ke Neng Shi Wo De.

Ni De Ming Zi Yi Zhi Zai Wo Xin Li

Sui Ran Wo Kan Bu Dao Ni, Dao Ni Yong Yuan Zai Xin Zhong

Credits to SC, helping me put up this beatiful sentences above. (:

_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_

To you, my dear, Please never forget me. It feels good to have new loved ones in your life, but weren't I used to be part of it too?? We can still be like we usually are right?

~~~~~~~

Mana satu kawan, dan mana satu lawan?

I'm getting ready, off to Hospital with my bro.

2010-02-11T22:13:00.000-08:00

(For shidah and Nab, rmmbr that time in the canteen? Hehs)

My Grandad is back to the hospital this morning. I'll be staying at my aunt's house, so i bet my blog will be dead for this momment.

Anw Happy Chinese New Year to all my chinese friends.. Tkcr. Love you all friends.

Atok recover soon please, I can't bear seeing you, sickly in the hospital bed. Imy so much..

2010-02-11T01:20:00.000-08:00

Im back finally.

(I was pointing to my lips as it was PURPLE in colour if it's clear, due to the consumption of purple dargon fruit. Haha ^-^)

I made this for you.

I Was Oblivious To The Surrounding When You're Around,

I Heaved A Sigh Of Relief When You're Right There In Front Of My Eyes,

Cold Sweat Triggered Down My Spine As Our Eyes Met,

Weaken My Knees Instantly,

Your Smiles Were Indescriable,

Melts My Heart Straight Away.

Your Words Kept Me Silent,

Kept Me Wordless.

But Too Bad, Your Words Could Never Make Me Stay,

When You Know I'm Leaving.

Afterall, I'm Just Dreaming Of Owning You,

I'm Just Hallucinating If If You Hapen To Be Mine.

(Sememangnya diri ini hanya bermimpi, dirimu takkan pernah aku miliki)

Rafiqah.

Okay. My Grandfather was back at home. Everyone's glad he's back home, and so was I. I had enough of seeing him suffer at the Hospital, that I saw him shedding tears, for the first time of my 17 years of living. 10 days being admitted, must really be a bad day for him. Now he's currently staying at my aunt's house. Imy Atok. I'm sorry to hear about your condition, but we couldn't do anything, but to accept it heavy-heartedly. And within that ten days *miracles* happened to me. Something beautiful, which I totally can't stop it from coming towards my way, it came straight to my heart.. But forget it. It's all over, anyway. Right there on 090210. (: I will take it as part of life.

Okay, I'm leaving now to my Aunt's house. To visit my Grandad.
Take care.

2010-02-04T23:21:00.000-08:00

My blog will be dead, I'll be visiting my Grandad back and fro from school everyday at the Hospital. So I'll be preety busy to update my blog. Thanks.

Speedy recovery, Atok.

2010-01-30T09:20:00.000-08:00

You'll never want make me angry.

Yesterday was TPSS annual mass run day. Well, i'd attend it. Haha. It was cool, and really was fun, and I did ran, and atlast ran alone. Hehs Overall rating: FUN. Bussed home and dropped at my fav place as Aqilah wanted to get herself bubbletea, while as I got down the bus, I was craving for ICE CREAM. Hehs. I got a Oreo McFlurry at Mcds.

Than as I got home, I just remembered of texting Shida's mum, wishing her a Happy Birthday. I t was nice of her to ask me to tag along for her birthday outing with her fams. But I insisted, as i'm sure they need privacy. And i'm preety tired. Haha

AND!! I'd a very bad diarrhoea.. causing me to feel very nauseatic, headache and giving me a slight fever.. Well, now i'm preety recovering after swallowing PANADOLS (i don't know if it works, for goodness sake, who knows, it cures -_-) Cause tomorrow I'm going to go for a family outing at seaside. My brothers planned to fish, and so do I? Haha Well, but I'd probably be taking some photos. Haha So that is why I hoped I'd recover soon, and yeaa, it did quite recover. Thanks to panadol -_-'

AND now I bet if the only one awake?? Haha It's 2AM soon, and I can't even rest my head to shut my eyes. Cause after the mass run, I'd enough rest. So now~ my eyes are widely opened!! 0_0

To Shida.. How else could I do/say to make you comprehend that I love you and all my friends huh? Cause if family aren't around, you'll look for your friends first. And they actually are part of our life, so it's like your own family. Agree?

See you guys. (:

Still.M.Y.

2010-01-27T05:52:00.000-08:00

Today, perhaps was just an ordinary-lethargic day for everyone in school. But it feels lighter as I have to attend only 1 in-focus today, and so is tomorrow. (:

Okay, now what happened to me? I don't know, either. I was just alright in school but after infocus I felt pain in my left eye. And it's sore plus thanks to the swell which add to much more pain. And my friends told me it was already red earlier which I hadn't notice. Now only my left eye is swollen and is very red (doesnt seem so red in the pic though). It's very painful that I kept shedding tears for the unbearable pain, and my head has gotten heavier and heavier. In 7 hours time, if there's still no difference, high chance, I would seek the doctor. I bet my eyes got infection by using contact lenses. -_- And if I were to attend school tomorrow, you'll probably see me in spects. Hehs.

And holy crap, I'm suppose to sit for SS and Chem test tomorrow. Aite, off to do some revision!! -_-'

2010-01-24T01:22:00.000-08:00

Here are some pics we had taken on my family day trip on Friday... We ate at Boon Keng, and then off to get some Durians at Geylang. We really had fun taking photos, laughs and all. Hahaha!

And today, perhaps, later, we're going off again.. But to I don't know where.. Haha

Omigosh, I really had fun on my weekends, that I just remembered of some maths assignment.. Haha!

p/s: I'm your biggest fan.

Till here, just a tiny update.

Bye!

2010-01-13T06:29:00.000-08:00

Oh my.. School had been officially opened for almost two weeks, and here I am getting more and more busy to update my blog. Well, today I have to go home later than my friends, as I have to attend the CIP meeting in school. Heh I was chosen to be the CIP manager by Juliana Y. Argggh! Haha I was like telling my co-form teacher that I don't want. I swear I begged her. haha But I seemed totally ignorant to her, what the heck. She said, it's for the sake of our 'PORT-FOLIO' for good remarks, like as if I really care. Haha. But thanks, tho.

Well, it's undeniable that 2010 is totally a different year than all the years I had been dealing with.. It's hard for me for a start, but I hope I will get use to it.. sooner or later.. New Year resolution? Forget it. I don't know. Haha I'm so sick of thinking of one. But I've had them, my-all-time resolution, in the bottom of my heart. <3

Well, to my dear Aqilah, get well soon. I went to her house to get her maths worksheet, just now, to hand it in tomorrow. She's unable to attend school tomorrow.. So cool!! Well, but I already had my MC on Friday, just the fifth day of school. Haha

Hah! And monday (110110) was totally a bad day for me, it will always be in the diary of my memory box. Haha

My fav Adidas sling bag (the strap) got tear apart.

I was late for school. (Not my bad, it was the bus.) And on the form I have to fill in, the reason for being late: The normal bus I took was late. It really was the bus fault's, but no one could really believe this. Haha

My phone and ez-link card got confiscated.

After school, I had trouble looking for my DM back and forth just to get back my valuables.

And as I'm reaching home, I accidentally drop my phone. Haha

What a luck.. Pheww -_-

Work? I think i'll come back on the 3 days Chinese new year holidays. To come back or not to? Heh.

Well, school, to me, was a big OKAY. No big fuss over it. Perhaps in-focus is chasing us the upcoming week. School was plainly bored. And I still can't get over this, I MISS MDM LOH! (my ex- form teacher) My class had been growing larger and larger, with more pax in it. It's so uncomfortable. A few of them just can't really get along, and so can't I. What are classmates meant to be? Hello? Pathetic. -_-

Why is LIFE perfectly unfair?? ohmigosh. I'm not this tough to go through all this alone, on a small wobbly path.. Help meh.

So, i'm going off to do some homeworks. (:

2010-01-02T05:26:00.000-08:00

Well, probably today is already the second-day-of-twenty-ten.

And yesterday was so called my last day of working service at Wild Wild Wet. My working hours of work yesterday was 9 hours. So I'd mostly spent my last hours there like crazy before I left. As yesterday, was new year's day, there were like around 3k pax of people entering www. Pheww -_- Well,like as if everyone(guests) knows that yesterday was my last day, that all of them acted very weird. Like asking crazy question, took our video, made fun, they just never stop me from smiling. And yesterday was the first time I get to eat with Chan Chang. =_=" Lols.

So at 6pm, Navin told me I could already go home. So I entered the middle room, Navin said bye. But I didn't reply cause my pen was with him. It takes him a while to notice that I need back my pen. I didn't ask for it, cause it's seems bad, cause he's using it. Than I took the courage, I said bye to him. And I mentioned: TODAY'S MY LAST DAY. Than he said "huh?, You quiting already?" I said no, just study break, maybe i'll come back in the holidays. (: As I was about to leave, he called me. So I turned, haha Navin was asking me for a hand shake. He wished me Happy new Year and good luck for everything.

That's so sweet of you, Navin.

Than as I was walking to ACC room (to clock-out) I was already shedding tears, I didn't care the guest that was all staring at me. I bet they thought I just got scolded or was fired! Haha! As Razzlyn and Chan Chang was still in the washroom, so I took my beg, and decided to wait them outside. I scared they'd notice me crying. As I got out, I saw MJ. So I just waved him goodbye while waiting for my friends. He knows that yesterday was my like day, then he said WHY?!?! haha While I was talking and letting it out all to MJ, he could already see me crying. and he PANICKED!! Lols (I know guys would panick when they encountered a girl crying, cause they don't really know how to stop her. Mj really look shocked yesterday. Hahah -_-").. Then he coaxed me, and calmed me down. At first he said I could atleast return back on weekends what. Heh. Than he said: I should concentrate more on my studies, and he said, IF FREE DON'T FORGET TO VISIT HIM AND THE OTHERS AT WWW. Haha. Than, he has to leave, he asked me for a hand shake, wishing me Happy New Year, and good luck for my studies..That moment he's leaving and he said that, my tears got worst. Haha

Than I walked to pasir ris interchange and had a good talk and laugh with Razzlyn and Chan chang, cause it's my LAST DAY!! I really miss everything and everyone at WWW. I'll really miss them after knowing them for 3 months. Not only my friends form admission departmen, but lifeguards, GR and the shop i forgot it's name. I didn't get to wish goodbye and happy new year to Fazly, Basheer, lina, Rashidah... I'm so going to miss you guys..So that's it, maybe i'm coming back on the school holidays.

And ohh, welcome 2010, and school's starting just 1 more days(:

Urgh. and I just received school's timetable from Juliana. And omg, sad that my heart bleeds when I see mdm loh no longer teaching me Maths. And more changes with the teachers. Omg, what's with this year?!!? I can't survive new teachers!! Argghhhhh!!! T_T"

Lots of love,

Rafiqah(:

2009-12-31T06:15:00.000-08:00

Today, tonight, the very night, will be the last night, the last few hours of 2009.
When the clock struck 12am sharp, Happy New Year guys!!

I know it was really2 sad to let a year that you had spent with lots of stufss every single day, just like that. But, what comes, have to go. Its fated that way.

So, just a short post today, and tomorrow, too, will be my last day of work. Sobs -_- I don't wanna talk about it again. Makes the wound in my heart became deeper and deeper, wayy deeper..

So, last but not least, Happy New Year once again everyone! May 2010 be a better year for us.. (:

Lots of love,

Rafiqah(:

2009-12-28T07:01:00.000-08:00

261209

I went to SG expo again with my brother after work. Catch bus 12, and met abg at expo. He bougt a DELL notebook and I bought this camera, I'd been craving for years. It's Nikon Coolpix L-100

I'm soo happy I got it at last. Haha (:

251209

My fams and I went to my cousin's house for christmas.. We really had fun that night. We took pics and funny pics too via their lappy's webcam. Lol, we really had a good laugh(:

I like this one the most (:

This one is cool too. Haha

All tounge's out.

Aisyah: rock kapak habis.. Haha

lols reminds me of brother Bo. haha

Omg. This friday, is my last day of work at wild wild wet, leaving for study. I'm so heavy hearted to let it go. To let it go, or not to let it go? So, I put as STUDY LEAVE FIRST. haha. Safer(:

So, tomorrow i'll be going to work again, I have to spent my hours there like tomorrow is my last day on earth.. I know I'm going to miss it when school re-opens. Hmm. why must happiness ends. It's the high and low tides of living, i'd understand.

Today, as there was like so lots of people coming in to WWW, I had to go break alone.. Than when I was having my break, got this man, I think in his early 40 or late 30s, I think he's working under downtown east, he smiled at me. So I smiled back, duhh. Than he said, "eating alone?" me: yeaa. He said "pity you.. want me to accompany you?(in malay)" Wth. Than I was like waving my hand, signing him, I don't want. Hahah

Than lucky Fazli came to save my day. Sat with me as I ate my lunch, accompany me and chatted as i'm alone. I got scared of that weird man sia. So flirty. Thx Fazli, my hero for a day. Lols.

So till here, have to take a nap(:

lots of love, Rafiqah.

So cute, mum just wag me with a rotan on my hand, cause i have not yet sleep.

-_-

2009-12-25T07:51:00.000-08:00

Thursday, 241209
My brothers and I went to SG expo (hall 6B) after my last minute plan to catch the "perang dapur" where the DJ Warna and Ria had a cooking challenge. Well, we came at 3, and there was like an ocean of people crowding the stage. All the 1-hour event, I was like tip-toeing all the way. Haish the problem of being too short. -_- Than after they cooked, it's announced that WARNA won the cooking cintest. Lol, and KC won the award of "king of cutting" Haha Well, I could see that he has the cutting skills despite tip toeing.. lols.

Than, Shah Ibrahim announced the momment I had been craving for: photo taking session with the DJs Hahaha! So we went to a coner to get a snap with them..

Me with zan sofiyan.

This one was where I shiver like what, coz my bros forced me to take pic with Zan all alone.. Haha
Hairi, Zan, Me, Dyn, and Helmi(:
Lols the only lady..
(you can tell I was shy)

Lols KC, me and Hairi..

(I don't like this pic..haha)

candid!

my bro said: cover his face, then me and KC looks like we are sibling.. haha
This pic was when everyone stopped KC to take pic with him. So he was like walking away when I was like pulling his hand accidentally. Cause my intention was just to call him, but my sudden reaction was to pull his hand! Omg i really don't mean it.. Lols.. Than KC was like shocked than he smiled, and take this pic.. Hahah

All black..

Haha cause they say if we support Ria FM, then wear black..

So we did!!

but soon after the cooking challenge, KC changed to a Man U red shirt!

Posed like brothers. Lols, so friendly.. Haha

KC looks so funny here.. But he looks good in person.. HOT!! hahaha

Than we walked out, grab some snack and accompanied my bro have some puff. And went home. Well yesterday was my most happiest day in life!! Ahhaha

Missing yst,

Rafiqah

2009-12-22T07:54:00.000-08:00

The pics as promised. (:

Rafiqah

2009-12-22T06:25:00.000-08:00

My beloved mum's bday- 091209

The cake I promised- THEME: Roses

p/s: my mum's name- ROSnah

Lols Afiq, pose with flower I made.

Who do you think would win? Haha

I know. It's been a little bit late since 09 December past, haha yeaa, but now that I uploaded the pics.. So my mum's birthday this year, we celebrated it at Pasir Ris beach. A small family gathering. The whole day, I shared everything with my brother, from cakes to KFC and many more. Haha was preety fun, we played alot.. Haha on my next post, I'll upload my pic taken with this cute baby boy, Shaskil, whom I met at the Pasiris Park playground. Haha

I bought mum a small hand bag which I'm so glad she love it alot.. Haha

Than on 141209 I went to wild wildwet with my two bros and Arif, Aisyah and Afiq. Haha and something happened. Well, it's still a dilema for me, i'll better not say it now, maybe a few days later...But indeed we really had fun. Andandand alot of people had been noticing of my more-tanner skin. Omg. Haha Lols my skin always absorbed the heat of the sun more easily sia.. Haha -_-

Okay, I'll post the pic of the baby and me some day.. Gotta go (:

lots of love,

RAFIQAH.

2009-12-21T08:07:00.001-08:00

Do you know how it's like when your dreams came true, gosh, must be feeling like the whole world is yours! And yeaa, I felt that, on Friday, 181209 I got my N level results. I totally had no confident of being promoted to sec5. I had talked to my mum, if that I had to go to ITE. I've prepared myself to go to ITE.

But, on Friday, when I was waiting for my results in the hall, I was so nervous, I barely speak any words. And I waited patiently for my turn. When I received my results slip from my form teacher, she smiled.. Omg!! I didn't smile back, thinking she's just giving me a sinister smile, looking down on me. The first thing I was to see on the result slip was: promoted. Hahaha! And the first thing I did was cry. Oh my god. Than I went counting my points (EMB3): 18.

I know I didn't score that well, compared to my fellow friends, but who cares, I'm happy I was promoted. I cried-tears of happiness. Haha I so can't believe it, cause I was all prepared for ITE. lols.

I got gred 5 for ENG
3 for combined human
5 for science
3 for maths(no wonder my teacher smiled haha)
and 2 for art... Haha

Oh my god, this year, 2 of my wishes came true- one is to pass my N level, and i did! (my other wish is a bit bad tho, bt it's for my own good, who cares. haha and i'm happy it came true), evil me... But also, my worst nightmare came true too this year, but thanks god, it's all over.

I know mum's happy. (: Thanks god, for setting her a smile again..

Okay, so I'm working tomorrow. I'm preety tired of working, I need to have a study break since I'm starting school soon. But I think, I'm gonna miss work when I start schooling. I would really do.

[ 061208.. It's been a year..
and ??0208 two years coming up u see.
And it's still in me, hello, two years, duhh. How the hell could I forget everything just like that? And today, another one of my dream came true. like I said, I won't look for you, let destiny decides everything. Fate. Kalau kita ditakdirkan untuk berjumpa, kita akan berjumpa jua.. Biar takdir yang tentukan.. IMY]

Hey, I'm a MALAY girl. And i'm proud of who I am, proud of my race, and my religion, bitch. Haha. And kau pulak, (bukan melayu) buat hal (bukan melayu) laa eh. Please, jangan melampau, never cross my line, I'm already pissed off with you, I know, I showed it too clear. Hahaha!!! I could tolerate you once, twice, but not thrice my dear, bitch... Godd luck with your life (:

Ohh, next year I'll be seeing my friends again. So happy(: and to Shida and Nab, thx for the hug on friday, u guys hug me when I was crying (hug of happiness to be back together), U really made me feel very warm, that I cried harder. Hahaha! Actually, when I was crying, than we went to the ladies, remember? I looked in the mirror, gosh!?!? I cried that bad?? Hahha. Thx for the hug guys.

I'm sad 2009 is leaving us again.. This year I had been going thru alot of thing, happiness, sadness, sweet moments, and many more. So hard to let 09' go.. But too bad, it needs to. Everything that I go thru this year, has changed me into a very better person, matures me in a way, and has gave me experienced for my years ahead.. sicks, hospitallisation, fights, lost, smiles, tears, apologisation, happiness, relatives to foes than foes to relatives again, friends to enemy and vice versa.... All this, I won't forget. I would never ever, every year..

Okay it's 1248am now. I have to wake up at 7 am tomorrow morning for work. So I have to get my sleep. I missed my bed, cos had been sleeping at aunt's house this few days, just got back home today.. (:

Lots of love,
Rafiqah.
<3

2009-12-04T06:19:00.000-08:00

Ohh my, now that I noticed I'ts been long i've yet to update my blog.

I had been working currently. So yeaa, have no ample time to blog. So yesterday was my off day. So I went out with Aisyah and Afiq.. Went to walk at Tamp 1 and ate ICE CREAM.. (:

Today, I got back from work at 4pm. Shida sent home at 1pm so does Kelvin Poon, he's so sleepy today that he laughed alot and he's having sore throat too.. So left me with Shi Chuen. And Shi Chuen won't be working till 13 Dec. Aww that dude's going overseas and he's buying me bubblegums as sourveniers!!Hahaha!

Monday, 1/12/2009, I got my new phone. I thought to buy SOMETHING else with my pay this month, but due to mum's spoilt phone, she's using my current phone, so I have to buy a new phone (heavy-heartedly).. Its LG Cookie KP500. I'll wait for my next pay, for that SOMETHING I want. :( I'll be patience..

[Seandainya aku membenci orang yang bermuka2. Tolong eh, I'm not a piece of crap. Kau tak perlu menodai aku. Aku tak sebodoh kau. Dalah kau bodoh, buta pulak tu. Kau tak perlu buat tu semua kat aku untuk pujuk hati aku yang tengah rajuk ini. Buat susah2 aje. Kau tu tak berharga pun pada aku. 3 words from me specially to you: KAU BOLE BLA.. Okay? You better stop it what you did today. Ianya tak akan dpt hilangkan rasa marah dan sedih aku ni.. Just fuck off.]

Anyways, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY NAVIN!!!! See you too tomorrow:) You better have a good rest, I can't forget the day you fall that night Navin, Hahha.

And, Fazli, you look better in black coloured hair, seriously, that;s what everyone thinks.. (:

Awww I had been loving my job. Especially Shida, the joker there.. Just like my friend, Rashidah. Hahaha I won't get bored with Shida by my side. And she taught me alot to shape up ballons for the kids, while I poped alot with my sharp finger nails!! Hahaha! And I blushed! -_-

Today was alot of people at work, visiting WWW. There's this sports school from all around the world came to WWW. Gosh, it was like so cramp, they have -Caucasians, Brunei, Thailand, Sg and many more. And two accidents happened that scares me alot..

And ya! Talk about accident, I fall down on Wednesday night. As I sent my Aunt by the road side to ride a cab home... She's gone.. so I was at the pavement, as I turned to get up the nearby stairs, my legs somehow got twisted (everything was so fast) I see myself twisting helplessly that suddenly I was lying down on the patch of grass behind me that I was directly looking up to the sky... Well there's people walking just at the opposite bus stop. So I quickly got up like nothing happened, covered my mouth and laugh when I actually felt like crying. Haha
When on Tuesday, I almost got hit by a damn-fast-speedingcar-that-was-like-inch-away-from-me. Hahha well I don't want to talk about that incident anymore, it hurts, it even sheds my mum's tears. Haha.

So now, I'm just totally blank. I don't know what's in me, I don't know what I want, I don't know what i'm looking for, and I don't know where am I when I'm not even lost in the first place. There's just this missing piece in me, where I hardly could find it back. I'm going back, tracking every inch that maybe I'd left behind without me noticing.. I'm just clueless. No more words to describe. Maybe that one [thing].. I just knew it!!!

To Rashidah, I've opt out the CPF thingy. Right after my mum shouted at me to do so (: Lols. Anw, I don't see the need of me to have the CPF account at this very momment yet..Hahah!

(anw, Mum, I won't quit my job, I'm just loving them. well sometimes it does hurt me alot, it really did, but there's something that pulls me all the way..You just won't understand it, no one could. Cause it's like working here, gives me the chance to interact from everyone all around Singapore. And indeed I'm waiting for that very momment when... THAT miracle happen..)

Hahha anyways I can't forget what Zhi Ying and Chanchang was talking about this morning.. I barely remember what they were talking about.. they were like speaking chinese when I'm the only malay there.. Than Zhi ying called chanchang 'racist'. Than I don't know what they were talking about, when suddenly chanchang said this "I don't like guys I like girls! (saying it with her face like 'omg? I said that' with a smile)" ...Zhiying said "omg, careful of chanchang.. Lols" Indeed I just shake my head and laughed. Chanchang is so cute. Haha lols.

Anw, N level result is coming out soon. And i'm so worried, where do i stand?!?! Good luck everyone...

Till here, 11.20pm.

Working tomorrow.

lots of love,

Rafiqah.

2009-11-26T07:54:00.000-08:00

Rashidah, the back row, right hand sight, that's Navin. I'm not sure if you have seen him before. Haha

Okay. So today I was working. And it's the SAF family day, it was like 600pax. Hahah And time flies so slow, that I got very tired, plus I'm fasting today. Haha I almost got sick. Haha And today, as i bused to work, when I got onto the bus, there's this ETP guy, I bet he's the ride operator, sitting at the last seat of the bus. Well, I don't even care to look who's that cause I'm so not into ETP people(ride operator). Than Razzlyn also took 3. As we both got out of cheers, those groups of ETP was outside cheers, than I saw that guy in the bus, I stared at him, he stared back, and lols, we said 'Hi', it's Syafiq. My primary school friend.

Hahha no wonder, as I boarded the bus, I noticed him looking and smiling, but I just ignored, again, cause I don't like them. Hahah

So tomorrow is Hari Raya Haji.

Selamat Hari Raya Haji everyone!!

Hahahahahaha

So I had been working this straight 5 days, and atlast I could rest for 2 days, and get back to work on Sunday.... Haha.

And I can't forget what Chan Chang said(advised) to me: Rafiqah, I think u should talk/communicate more with your colleague more,(well but I already did, cause how could we like chat infront of our ICs right?). Then she asked "are you talkative" without hesitation, I said 'yep. I am, but with the person I'm close with, Im very shy, haha.' she said, Im like Razzlyn, starting shy, but got more and more talkative soon after. Hahah Damn you Chan Chang, I end work at 6pm today, but I left like 6.30pm cause she asked me to do filing and alot more stuffs. And3!!! When I got back, my families already break their fast, lols. Haha.

Hahha and guess what?!?!!?

As I got home, there's mee, lontong, hahah and alot more raya stuffs lol. so patriotic.. Lols. And when I entered my house, the first thing I'm aware of was the TADKBIR. haha lols, makes me sad, makes me feel so down.. very touching. Hmmph!

And, we fails to visit my father's and grandma's grave tomorrow, cause my Uncle have to work.. Damn! How I wish it's like near my house, than I could visit it everyday. Omg, it mades me MISS my dad and grandmas alots.

I really do. T_T

And If only they're here, this raya season, moreover, I want them to be by my side everyday. But too bad, What has gone, had gone.

And now, I'm so addicted to Down-Jay Sean, and straight through my heart-backstreetboys. Hahaha these songs had been played times and times at my workplace, that I got so addicted by it.. Hahah they are very nice to hear..

Aite, till here. I got to go now, It's 12.19 on my watch.

So gotta help mum with some preparations, and go to sleep. (:

So see ya people.. (:

lots of love,

Rafiqah....

2009-11-19T06:53:00.000-08:00

Ahh it's been way so long since my last post. I had been busy working. Yea. This week, I have to work for 4 days. And today luckily it was my OJT( on job training) day again. So atleast I just have to seat, and wth, Florence asked me to served the guest. Haha but *magic* everything turned out smooth. Thanks god, but I had trouble talking eventhough there's a speaker and I tend to forget what to say, especially when it rains, we have to tell the customers lots of things, bla bla bla. And crap, Shi Chuen, and Zhi Ying left at 3pm when they actually should end at 5pm, with me! Haha. But I had a good laugh after so long, when I taught Zhi Ying malay language, HAHAHA!

Ahah! On Tuesday, was my off-day, Aisyah texted me on Monday to catch a movie at Down town east, so we went on Tuesday, and watched, 2012. Omg, it was really thrilling, sad, scary, and I cried like alot of times, and all the way, my jaws was like wide opened, hahah!. Omg, haha but the ending was so hilarious. Where could anyone on earth ever escape the end of the world day. Haha! The time when they knew the time has come, than they were all like contacting their family members, it was like so sad. It was really scary. You guys should watch it!~ Than Aisyah and me walk around at E!hub and decided to take the miniride. Its $6 per ride. Lol, despite shouting, I was laughing my heart out all the way, and Aisyah was like coughing2. Haha! We chose the roller coaster theme as our screen, we were like inside this car, that jerks really like in the scene, and my god, the jerk was like so hard, you could flung off at any time if there weren't any seat belts or pole to hold on to. Hahah! Than we had our dinner at Mc donald, than went to shop and bussed home. Hahah what a day!

I got so carried away when I watched 2010 that I had been having nightmares for the past 2 days. Lol.. Really scary dream. Haha.. Everyone, You guys just have to watch it dude!

Awww tomorrow, I have to work again. But I bet, tomorrow its me and Shi Chuen only working? But ok, that dude is fun worth accompanying me haha. He's nice. Lol. Ahah! and at my workplace, there's always this monster that never fails to disturb me,make fun of me, than makes me laugh and scares me without fail, it's so scary, haha!

And kau, dah lama tak nampak muka kau?! Da pergi mana? Bawa diri eh? Bagoslah tu, tolong aku hapuskan kau dari otak aku ni ok???. Kalau jumpa than jumpala, if not, jangan harap aku nak menunggu kedatangan kau tu. You can fuck off, thank you. :)

haha when I was at the cashier counter just now, Ain came. Haha she's so anxious to start work again this Saturday. Razzlyn, imy ah. I want work with you (:

And now i'm stucked between the sky and the land. I'm just no where to be seen. I can't even find my self, I'm totally lost!! And, tell you what, Ima just let circumstances do it all for me, biar takdir je yang tentukan. Biarpun sekuat mana aku berusaha, jika Allah melarang ia dari terjadi, ia tetap tak akan terjadi. Baru aku sedar kelemahan aku ni. Heh, so that's it. Ku berserah..

IMY, I still do. I know, I still do, coz everytime I reached that place, I found myself loosing in the darkness searching all over for you! I still do, but where are you, MR. Man In Black?

Yours truly,

Rafiqah.

Lol and to Rashidah, your message you sent me this morning, makes me think you're insane. You don't even know pasar tu kat mana, and you don't even know ho PG ever looks like. Hahhaha!

Sorry I can't reply you, I have some probs messaging you (u know what it is).

[Hahha and 1 more malay contestant of SI got eliminated, Faizal. Good luck to you dude. But too bad, if not you're helping me with the sticky glue of PG, but you're making it loose]

2009-11-12T07:41:00.000-08:00

Ohhh Rafiqah is so going crazy after babies!!!

Yes I swear, since I worked, my loved for babies, is balloning, bursting, loading and gaining tonnes for BABIES!!!! Haha OMG.. They are the cutest thing on earth. My next pay, I will be going to Toys'r'us and buy a baby.. The one that really looks like a real baby. Hahaha!! It's so tempting... Abg!!! Get married quickly, I'll love your son or daughter, like they are mine!! Hahah (Unless they're not cute) Sheehs. Hahaha

Well, tomorrow!! I'm working, yeaa, I have to go to work! Omg, everytime people asked me and when they mention 'work' i would have butterflies in my stomach. God damn it!! Ouch! It really hurts.. I'm just so scared. Why? I don't know. Think for some reason. Lame reasons, perhaps. Just scared to see how it goes. Everytime I step in, I would shiver and be timid, it's like a spontaneous act I would do. And I hate myself for that!

Ok wait, now it's 1200 AM sharp on the nose! Haha and everyone's asleep... Awwww

Happy Birthday KC!! Haha (whatever..) Hahah!

Yesterday I went to shop at Giant with my family. Haha I really had fun, and I spent alot! haha With my own money.. Hhaha stayed at home the whole day today, actually thought to go wild wild wet with Abg, Aisyah and Arif, but to some reasons, we had to delay it. Maybe next week. Hahah.

And yeaaa! Fuck you. Takda kerja lain nak buat ker da lama hidup? You're making me feel want to be a murderer. Haha! Omg, Fuck off la, have no guts! It's so obvious.

And to my that FRIEND. Ohh please. I'm old enough to decide and to measure for myself, what's best for me and what's not. You're a jerk, a total jerk, I swear. Please don't act like you're one famous beautiful Bitch in town okay? (: And, one more thing, DON'T TRY TO BE MY MOM. Putting me under your armpit? Heh. Wait till one day, I'll show my true colours, and that I'm better than you! Got me? Or you're just plainly don't understand my language? You want me to elaborate further in Malay, Chinese, Arabic, Javanese or Portugese? Heh?

Ok now, till, here,Mum was asleep, and was awake suddenly, and told me to shut my PC. Awww. I still don't wanna go, I still wanna stick here. Ain, pls, I'm waiting, still counting to 201109, can't wait to see you at WWW. I hope having you there, will make my life better at work.

Ohh man! And I'm having a big problem!!! I'm having difficulties speaking to GUYS/MALES! That's totally my weakness. Gosh. Serious, Like my voice hardly went out. Especially at work, I tend to talk softer sometimes. Haha.. Even to my brothers, I sometimes have diffculty, now what's more to strangers?? Haha And to you, thx to your shades, thanks alot, if not for that I'd probably, peed in my pants or I could have shivered uncontrobally that very day. Haha see you tmr.

And to PG, you're still deep down under my heart, still sticking, thanks to the sticky tape. Haha Your memory will be the sticky tape to my heart. Hope it will still be sticky, for I scared it will be worn down, PG... But don't worry, I won't forget you, that so easily.. You're always in front of my eyes.. Can't wait to see you, help me strengthen the tape okay? But [someone's] pulling it off!! And I can't help it!! I have 1 word for you, IMY. I still do.

Nanti aku kasi kau cermin, cermin your face baik2 k.. Sedar siapa dirimu. Okay, I can tolerate you once, but not twice, I'm not your piece of waste paper, mate.

Aite till here. It's suddenly 1243AM. haha That was so fast.

till here

Rafiqah

2009-11-12T07:02:00.000-08:00

Kufikir cinta itu

hadir di balik hilai tawa mereka

tika merah bibir dicumbu rakus

berusik-usik kasih

bermanja-manja sayang

walau linangan air mata hati

berkali merayu

tetap kuzalimi diriku

Kufikir cinta itu

hadir di balik ingat-ingatan

rindu-rinduan

di balik harapan

untuk bertemu bersatu

silang berganti malam siang

dalam khayalku

berlayar di laut hati

Sekian lama

baru kini ku tahu

cinta itu

bukan lahir di bibir

bukan bermain di kata

bukan bertempat di senda

Baru kini ku tahu

cinta hanya 'kan tiba

bila kutempatkan ia

pada yang haq!

2009-11-04T21:53:00.000-08:00

Oh. Damn. I'm working tomorrow. Right till Sunday. Hmm, I'm so currently bored at home..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Rafiqah has just learnt a biggest lesson:

She shouldn't look down on people even if they're not up to your standard.
Everyone is born with a speciality each, that must be appreciated.
May they be awful on the outside, but they are actually beauty inside, and they has IT what the preety and pretty does'nt.
The sincerity u had in you will melts everyone heart, my dear.

Till here everyone,

Rafiqah..

2009-11-02T04:47:00.000-08:00

Last week I have to work on Thursday, Saturday and sunday. So on Thursday, i was working alone, at WWW entrance. And it was like until 8pm. It was very boring! Haha cause time passed very ssssssllllloooooowww...

Lol than before 8, Chan Chang brought me to the cashier booth and sat down. Haha atleast I get to seat, after the long hours standing.. Thanks to Kenny. Before Zhi Ying went home, she made me a dog-balloon. Haha than i was holding it, when i was going out, I like heard someone saying something. Than I turned, the usual lifeguard, the more familiar one (i forgot his name), said to me, "Next time don't bring pets inside" Lol it takes me a few seconds to understand his jokes than i laughed. Haha. Blur/slow me.

On Saturday, I came to my workplace for afternoon shift, at 3.30pm and ends at 8pm. Than I walk to Pasir Ris inter with Zhi ying, Jing Han, Nizam and Bashir. Lol it was like so packed to get out from Down Town East as Escape Theme Park has the HELLOWEEN event. There were like vampires, scream ghost, haha many more ghosts(: Than all of them ask me to join to have a walk at white sands. But I have to leave, cause I'm staying at Aunt's house.. I have to be home early..

On Sunday, I went to work from my Aunt's house. As i was about to cross the road, The bus arrived. So I had to wait for another 17 to arrive. Than I saw my watch, OMG!! I'm gonna be late for work. Than at one stop, Lina and her BF boarded the bus too. Fuhh!! What a relieve, I have a companion, should I say a late companion too! Hahaha!! Than as we reached the bus stop, someone was at the double deck's bus staircase, standing, lookingat me and was smiling broadly at me. Haha at first I hesitated to smile but, I smiled back, thinking it was any gatal random guy, than I just noticed it was Bashir!! Haha So We walked to www together as Lina left me behind cause she was walking with her bf. So we walk slowly, talk2, thinking it was still early. Haha Than Bashir asked me what time, it's 8.55am, he said ''still can, still have 5 mins''. Haha than we looked at each other's face blankly: just notice 5 mins?!?!? Hhaha than we both run to the security guard to get our pass and as i was clocking in, I was a minute late. It was at 09:01 am. Haha!! Than as i was going home with Dina at 6pm, still at www, walking out , Bashir made a sad face, like why I never wait for him. Haha If not can go home together with Zhi ying all that. I just waved him goodbye. Think I what, haha I very cheecky ahh, want to ask a guy for a walk home or to wait for him, like so cheeky. I'm just not liddat, mind you. Hahaha!

Haha lol. My new friends, are warm nice people.. Ohh this week, I have to work 3 days again, but on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Haha Rashidah, Work one time only a week. Haha wait till the holidays come, we have to work everyday. Haha I prefer working everyday, Can earn more money. Haha

Anw on Thursday, the singer, Chico, came, and asked me that he has this ticket for free entry. 1 ticket is for 2 person entry, than he came in 3 person, so left one which has to be forfeited, but he said, "jomla masok sekali ngan kita" Lol haha. Than as they leaving, actually they're all stupid. Call me 'kak', haha, his friend said, "kak telinga masok air ah, camne nak keluarkan?" Than I said "amik straw and sedutlaaa, haha"

Since I worked, I encountered 2 artist (Chico and Ghani Karim), and many fucking customers. I hate the fact, " customers is always right." Never try to put their place in our shoes, we have to check the receipt, count their heads. Than they can't even spare us a single moment. Pathetic Idiot! Hahahah!!

And!!! I encountered gays, indeed 3 gays, yesterday. One of them was really like a lady, quite dark, and plum, said to me that 'her' friend is coming later. so, I was like, 'hmm what do i adress her?' so I said, "ok, i need ur fried's name, and nanti bile dia datang, AWAK kena ada sini" Haha I adressed her as AWAK... Over my dead body, that I have to call her 'cik' or something when talking in malay.. Cause i have 0% tolerence to soft-guys. Like hello, your voice was so deep, and yeaa, no offence, I HATE THEM. Than i saw this guy, walk up the step and to my entrance place. He wore totally like a guy, a tee and pants.. Butbut!!!! He was damn fucking soft! He walk like as if he's dancing, with his hand he swing slowly, walking with his both legs taking small steps, omg no words to describe, just SOFT, seriously, if I have a rock with me that very moment, I had throw it at him badly. My eyes just can't take it. So disgusting.

And then got this pakcik, such a joker, he made my life at that very boring last hour of work, with a smile. Haha I have to open the sidegate for peeps with prem or trolleys, than he said "orang kat depan tolak baby, saya tarik beg, dalam ada baby!!" Lol, it may not sound funny here, but in reality, it really was, you know as he said it patrioticly with sense of humour.... Haha and that I met alot of people, all kind of people. With the female lifeguard was naked in the toilet, wth, just in front of our eyes. I can't take it, I turned away and got out. That was so totally insane, yes, I understand she's the open type, but it's so indecent.

Haha Atleast now I'm getting use to my work, with everyone, but perhaps, some of them, now I could blend in and camouflage to the surroundings! Yeaaaa.

To shida, chill, relaxla, she won't sterotype you that way, out of a sudden. orang rambut sama hitam, tapi hati lain2, coz not all people is the same, yeaa I don't mind what you did to me, but she just don't like it.. Haha bila nak buat kawan baru, kita kena memahami apa yang dia suka, dan apa yang dia tak suka, bila ni da terjadi, kamu da tau, so u can avoid it next time, it's a lesson to learn from their attitude.

P/s:

Pandangan mata tak semestinya betul..
Ohh please don't judge me by my cover, you'll love me when you know me
Everytime i looked at my watch.. oohhh,nvm....
Girls, mind you, never act fast, be slow and steady.. You can't assume anything that is happening now. You can't assume what you think is right, when it goes the other way round, you'll be dissapointed. I swear.
And now, I'm JUST moving on (just a step further), you're already gone! WTH!!

And today is the sec 5 bridging programme. Well I didn't turn up, cause I totally have 0 confidence that I could go to sec 5. Well, I heard that not many turn up, tho. I bet they are all busy working too. Haha

Ohhh and tmr, I'm not working, so I have to substitute my mom, and be my uncle's bus attandant. Haha!!

Soo till here, lots off love,

Rafiqah

2009-10-28T16:53:00.000-07:00

Life's deliberately unfair.

Yes, it is going through with the flow but it's not going the way I want it to. Crap. My life's sucking. Why must all this happened? What had I done to you, mind you, again? Did I do a mistake again? Please be thruthful laa eh. Be yourself, don't get people in trouble, and utmost! don't get yourself too, in trouble! remember, what goes around, might comes around, my dear..

~Rafiqah

Anw, I'm going to work after this, from 12pm, right smack to 8pm. So see ya!

2009-10-22T08:10:00.000-07:00

Anyways....
2nd day, i saw Azfar and Afiq.. so do they.. Lol, like can't believe it's me working.
3rd day, Rahman's twin brother came witth their friends, and I got to know from his brothers that he's working at KKH, the PC section. Lol Fun. Cooling somemore, with the air-con and stuffs. And I saw someone- with [IT'S] family, I think they're going to the Downtown east's chalet with their large baggage. Haha Lucky [it] didn't enter WWW. I'm just not ready to serve [it].
Well just now, Lina was shouted by a chinese man,. Fuck off sia idiot. It's his fault, he shouted at her. I hate the rules saying that: CUSTOMERS IS ALWAYS RIGHT. Go to hell sia. And we can't even talk back, wtf. I'm so pissed off. It's unfair.

Well, Lina interviewed this job with her Bf, And got separated. Dina separated from her friend, and so do I , separated from Rashidah. Haha cool. Stup. Like as if we won't do our job, if we're working together. They just don't trust 'kids' like us. Heh.

Kk TILL HERE. It's now, 20mins past 11pm.
nites peeps.

2009-10-22T07:30:00.000-07:00

Well today is my 3rd day of working at Wild Wild Wet. And yeaa, I made new friends. Yeaa, now I have more circles of friends around me.. I had Razzlyn, Dina, Lina, Chan Chang, Kenny, and Jun Hao. Haha but there were alot of chinese though. But while I'm with them, Only 1 Thing was on my mind: "I PREFER MY FRIENDS THO. THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN FREINDS WITH ME FOR YEARS, I'M JUST TOO COMFORTABLE WITH THEM, I NEED THEM AFTERALL. IT'S HARD TO FIND A NEW." Well or maybe I hadn't know my new friends yet. I don't know, I'm just stuck..

1st day,
well everyone thought me. Do this and that. WOW!! I had to serve the first customer. Lol scary. But lucky I learnt fast. Hhaha Lina said: "you learnt faster than me, sia" Haha. Have to say (Gd morning! may i have your receipt, pleaseeee) haha or when they're exiting, we have to ask (hi, are you coming back again?) If yes, I have to cop their hand with the invesible ink stamp, and which have to be seen with UV light. Well I kinda laugh when many of them was like "eh, no ink??" and some goes, "sorry my hand wet, sio there no stamp" Haha lol. I had to explain and demo to them. What a job. And what's crap most, I HAVE TO STAND ALL MY WORKING HOURS, WHETHER THERE ARE CUSTOMER OR VICE VERSA, WE STILL HAVE TO WAIT FOR THEM. I swear when i went home, my leg was aching like what seh. Had lunch with Lina.
(I saw Faiz and Hakim, So do they. And Atiqah, my old young friend)

2nd day
Treat Dina plain water (: Heh. Well gotta use to my job. There was an Indian lady who scold me, Idiot. F you, bitch. Anw i had lunck With Lina and Dina. I only ate ice kachang(to cool myself haha)and a piece of papaya. And so on.....

3rd day...
today.. Haha so we start of with cleaning our counter.. And today there were like alot of caucasians coming to WWW. ahah There were like over 180++ i DON'T KNOW WHY, WE HAVE TO COUNT THEIR HEAD SAPARately... What's weird many customers was like asking me, "can i smoke outside there?" (coz they can't smoke in WWW) than i was like, i think you go further to smoke.. haha and, wth, like as if I smoke, that i have to care about the anti-smoking area.. Am I right.. than got a malay guy also asked, so i talk back in malay," nak isap rokok, pegi ah jauh2 sikit, luar sana, saya tak tahu laaaa." than one of them was like echo back after me with a 'tink-like-girl-voice', "saya tak tahu laaaa." Bastard.

Haha Thx Kennny, like know i was wRestless, he asked us to have a second break, and i went to have a bubble tea with Zhi Ying, and some old chang kee snacks.. Haha Anw, there we some crap VIP thingy coming there, so we were like playing baloons, lol, haha lucky that momment makes our time passed faster. Alan so talented, made an octopus-like out of those ballons. Haha Today was my first day working for 9hours.. past 2 days were only 7 hours. Haha [and i already felt like quitting!!!!!]

So ARGRRRRRGGRRRGGGHHH!!! I'm so not ready for tomorrow!! I'm soo tired, my leg's and body are all aching. Now that i really took the courage to stay awake to update my blog, and see my other sites. Hahah. MuM, I WANNNA QUIT!!!!

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If You want the rainbow, you must to, put with the RAIN first..

AITE, TILL HERE, IT'S NOW 5 MINS PAST 11pm. And I should be in bed now, gotta wake up early tmr, for the bloody job. The job that is killing me!!!
bb tkcr everyone,
with love, Rafiqah♥

2009-10-19T02:19:00.000-07:00

So, on Sat, i went with Shidah to WWW. And on Sunday, we went for the interview. And after i got back home, at 5pm, while I was sleeping, i received a phone call, from Jasmin, and i got in for the work! Yeaa, as an admin officer. Ticketing place. But!!! Shida also got a job, but at Escape theme park. omg. too bad, we're separated. Im so dissapointed, i bet shida too. haha but Ain said, friends can't work together, and that's so true, afterall. But well, atleast i have zhing ying with me at WWW, and in a months time, Ain, will be joining me. yeayy!!..

To rashidah: Good luck to you, may you have fun, we still can spend time together maybe during break time, okays. Haha Just endure and perseveare whether we like it or not....

So tomorrow will be my first day of WORK.. ArGHHHH!!! I'm kinda nervous, coz i still have got alot of things to learn from them. Hopefully they are all nice people..
And what a crap, we have to pay them 40 bucks for uniforms and name tag. Lol. weird stuff. Haha kaes, ima be busy.. I'm staying at aunts house, and will be working.

lot's of love,
Rafiqah♥

2009-10-17T02:24:00.000-07:00

Well i got so pissed of for looking on for jobs.. Today i went to Down Town East with Shida again(: We went to Escape Theme Park, but the Guard said the supervisor was busy, and asked us to come again tomorrow. We was like, "WTF, we came here like so far and you simply asked to come again tomorrow. That easy?!?"

And so we went to Wild Wild Wet again. We met the girl from TPSS, and so we went to get the form agian, now as an Admin only. And ohh that STUPID lifeguard was there, i was like wtf, haha and i turned my face away, so does Shidah. Lol hate to see his face. so we sent our form to the office, to the nice chinese guy(i hope so) and he will call us for an interview...

So now I'm going to my second house. I did, i was "can't wait to get there",always. But when i get there, i would go "I want go home," cause it hurts.. It hurts to see memory playing in your eyes again, and then your eyes would start to go watery and ur heart sank, I'm so perfectly sure, everyone had felt that before!! But, too bad, I can't run from [REALITY]

sO NOW, I GOTTA GO..
with love, Fiqah♥..

p/s: Thaqif, yeaa I'm the FIRST LADY. hahaha

2009-10-15T09:38:00.000-07:00

A single kind word of yours have and will keep me warm for years, PG♥ .....

Rizal(Slakerz) said: Missing someone isn't about how long it's been since you've seen them last or the amount of time since you last talked. Its about that very moment when you're doing something and you wish that they were right there with you.
Haha thkz, Zal. Thks for everything, the help and those words...

[What are hatred for afterall~useless]

Well, maybe tomorrow I will go to Escape Theme Park, Down Town East with Rashidah to apply for job. Haha that crap at WWW really sucks.

[I don't know. My life just sucks since you're gone. I don't have the appetite, to live. I ate more of sorrows and quenched by my own tears. Now that I realised, I'd taken you for granted and that now I'm dying inside.I can't live w/o you..]

Never hesitate to do a good deed, so yeaa.

Till here, Rafiqah♥

2009-10-13T01:10:00.000-07:00

Hey.. yea I'm really in the hols. Haha well, yesterday I just had an interview for work, with Rashidah. Haha was pretty darn nervous though, coz we never had it before. Well our interviewer is a LIFEGUARD and a SUPERVISOR at the same time. So when he called, I was the first one to go. Well he asked me to introduce myself and tell him why i wanted that job. So i was like talking and talking, to convinced him. Than we chated, bla3. So now!!! We are waiting for his call~ whether we are going to get that job. Ohhh I rally hope i passed the interview. Lol. Yea, i met a schoolmate who's working there too. Haha Phew -_- Plus, if I get that job, let's say, than I will go through some test. As in they will teach us, than they will survey on our job. Haha, that's so scaring me. Heh Well, i have to face this, cause one day, we still have to face this too.

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My Horoscope

Rushing to get things done could cause a number of different problems today, Cancer. You may have things in a lot of different baskets today, and have to sort through and find what you need. [It's also possible that something of great importance to you needs to be dealt with but you don't have all the information at hand.] ♥ If you have to give an account of something you personally experienced, or a presentation of information, do your best to stick with the facts, and don't let anyone change your mind about what you want to do.

Haha That's so true, dude!!
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And now, i don't know what to do. Just waiting for the results of that job. Actually we'd ask for job at downtown east- wild wild wet. Heh as a slide operator. Wah, I'm so scared. Hahah.

So chill, ya. Hasta la vista.
Rafiqah.♥

2009-10-09T02:21:00.000-07:00

Hey! Well I'd just changed my blogskin coz im tired of the old one. Yea, so i chose this one as my current blogskin, well it's for a while, till i found a nice proper one for my blog.

Well, i did see my horoscope for today, for almost a long time, not updating with it. Here what it says:

[You need to do whatever you can to find out what's going on behind your back, Cancer, because the situation is not improving. It must, at least, be highly irritating by now; the start are showing both stress and frustration building into out-and-out anger. There may be a chance to break an agreement and get rid of someone who is not doing their part, but it will be a hassle. You should consult with someone who is an expert on these matters before proceeding, because once you move forward, there is no turning back.]

Well, I think it's kinda true afterall. I need to do something to find out what's going on behind my back. Actually am doing it, but it's hard, I'm struggling, like I said, I will find out one fine day. And yeaa, the situation is not improving, not at all, and it is irritating to faced and giving me stress and an endless frustration and anger. I know, there is no turning back.

Hmm now i'm busy looking for jobs. I want to be employed. I want the experience :) I want to feel it, the feelings when you got paid with your own energy and sweat. Shida, chill ah, i'm still looking for the job, and i'm still asking for any vacancies for other jobs too.

So till here, i gotta go buy medicine for my sorethroat that is getting worst since after my last N level paper yesterday. Tkcr, everybody!
Hasta la vista (:

2009-10-01T22:51:00.000-07:00

Yay!! atlast i have an anak sedara. Haha dah jadi makcik aku. heheh.. my cousin on my father's side already has a daughter, so that baby is my niece right?? I'm not sure.. Haha Whatever it is... she's so adorable. Haha Going to be 1 year old soon, this Sunday.... yeay!!!
So Happy Birthday to you!!! Be a good girl darling!!

2009-09-29T16:11:00.000-07:00

I can read it , can You?

fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too. Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can.

i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg . The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

2009-09-28T16:42:00.000-07:00

p/s: To Rashidah, or anyone, who had been asking to see my raya pics, it's been posted below, you just go down,down and down. Hhaha

2009-09-28T03:04:00.000-07:00

Haha here are some of the family that came.

Abg Aman's/Cik Raimah's family.

Maklong's/Paklong's family.

2009-09-28T02:13:00.000-07:00

My fam's hari Raya Pics as promised. Haha

Selamat Hari Raya everyone!!

Me and Aisyah candid2. lol. coz of the flash that hit my eyes!!

Haha candid too!! Unready pose. Heh!!

Afiq looks so cute, to me, haha coz he's wearing black. Haha hot2.

Of all many letters at the pineapple tart. Haha

Waiting for the lift, hurry!!

MJ cookies- in memory. Haha Well it tasted good tho.

Three guys in black. Hot right??

Haha

Reflection at wheel chair.. Haha Nothing to do.

Stress keperr tunggu lift tu makcik??

Mimi and Nisah

Mimi nad nisah again.. Hahah

Smile Nisah Smile.

Wth!! Unfair!! they took the car ride, while we naik van. hmmph!

At Mami's house

So that's all folks. Heh this year's Raya, wasn't a fun day for my family at all, I swear. It's really a heart throbbing momment. A day that made us all sad. A day that i would never ever forget till my last breath, i promised. A day for SOMEONE to learn. And i never had the chance to seek for forgiveness from my mum. Huh. What a luck. Well, to cut it simply short, it's just wasn't a fun day. not at all. Easy? Hah.Huh those smile on the pics, I tell you, it's totally fake. everybody's smile on that pic is a lie! It's deceiving, it's fake!! I know. So am i. Everyone's affected.

Well, now had been alot of families coming to my house for raya. Well on Saturday, 2 big families came, and my big house, suddenly seems so squeezy. Haha well, we were already like panicking, especially me. Haha You know the part you have to give them their drinks aite, haha, i was so nervous, that when Abg Aman disturbed me that I look like that Dayang Nurfaizah and all those craps, he was like teasing me, he sings Dayang's song, that i couldn't even laygh. I was so nervous sia, my hands were shivering. Lol.
So does on Sunday. 3 families came, AND YA!!!
There were babies too. indeed, there were alot of them. I was like wtf! Like as if everyone knows I'm so into BABIES!! Ahh they are all so adorable, they never fail to make me laugh, babies always made my day. Seing them smile, and hearing them laugh, just lightens up my day. Hhaahaha.Hahahhaha HAAAHAHhahha. [Stop me from laughing!]

And my school ended last friday. Only for Sec4 N batch. But today me, and a few classmates came to school for the ez-link card thingy. So while I have to wait till 10AM, i dropped at my Aunt's house. Haha i ate her kuih Raya! Lol.
[It's very weird, i Don't know why. Every time i reach her house, everytime i stepped at her house,as in her block, as in her lift, as in, in Bedok North i mean, I felt something. Something that makes me feel so peace. I just feel good, Well actually that's for a reason i kow, i don't want to say it, it's alright. Stepping my foot in Bedok, already made me feel relieved, hilang segala rasa rindu yang membunuhku itu. Hah It's beyond my thoughts.. i just missed staying there...]

It's been changed. My memory will be gone!! They're changing it, and you're keeping in silence?! Do something you,stu[p]id!! I don't want it to go. Everthing lays there you know.. *sigh

And I'm still looking,
Searching,
Finding,
for the perfect time,
for the right place,
and for the reasonable situation.

Deep in me, I'm crying.

2009-09-24T07:27:00.000-07:00

I'll be here for a moment only.
I'll post ad update my Hari Raya pics tomorrow. Insya allah. Haha. I was so busy and tired after school. Haaha. And tomorrow is my last day of school. Haha gotta stick at home and buck up sia for the whole of next week.!! Arghhh!!

Atlast i've bought my new earpiece for 26 bucks. Lol. Can't getany cheaper seyy. Haha. I can't wait to update my Raya pics ah, Haha.....

so till here, tkcr!!
Raf(:

2009-09-19T06:05:00.000-07:00

Ohh god, Can I be there ever again. Please show me a miracle, I wanted to go there, miracally, or magically, you know like magic, you snap your fingers and you get there! Ohh please.

Haha i love this shirt alot! Given by Mami! Thx Mami. Love ya alot. One more is pink in colour, haha i kinda don't like it , coz it's pink. Heh.

2009-09-19T04:58:00.000-07:00

I just took a few pics of my house preparations for Hari Raya tomorrow. Pics Like kuihs, and many more, haha

I saw a face. Do you?

We have this at home! like a nice scent for your house, made up of dry flowers and many more.. Haha

Wth!! My atok reading my phone!

Pistachio Toast

Remember this? ohh i bought this, but at diff shop.

Haha(muka malam raya. lol)

Haha! selamat hari raya from us! (:

Ok so the result whether tomorrow is Raya or not was decided 21 minutes after Azan to break fast. Than the sounds of tadkbir fills everyone's ear. Like you predicted, i ran to the ladies and i CRIED! I have to let the burden in my heart go. Cry.. It makes me feel better in a way. I'm just sad, like every year i did, feeling sad for the one that had gone earlier than me, my dad and my beloved nenek. I miss you guys alot, how I wish you guys were here tonight, listening to the tadkbir yang sangat sayu, bersama-sama. I can't help it but cry.
But it's weird you see, i don't feel enthusiastic for raya this year. It's not that lively like it always did. I don't know why. But I think tomorrow, the feeling will come. [Hopefully] Errgh..

Yesterday i went to bazaar geylang. Again. But with Mum and my 2nd bro. It wasn't fun at all. I swear. Was so irritating. We also went to Raja Kuih to buy kuih2. But i saw two kinda artist. Lol. I saw Kamsani, the guy in Anigerah, and Zoul, M Nasir's bro. Haha.
Today was so tiring. Early in the morning, i had to accompany mum to the [market], than followed my bro with his bike to my cousin's house to give some kuih. Than i went to get my baju Raya. Haha. i like going to people house, to see what they have done, or their preparations for raya. Haha

Mimi.. Change, pls CHANGE. I'm changing, so I hope you will too. You should have just punched me yesterday. Why must you hesitate?? If it is really my bad, should have just punch me you see. Bagos, nak raya, ini yang kau buat??! Buat aku nangis?? Nak tumbuk muka aku lagi?? Tepok dada tanya selera eh.

So, to everybody: (i prefer saying this in malay)
[Selamat Hari Raya Maaf zahir dan batin. Seandainya Rafiqah ada tersalah silap atau terkasar bahasa, atau pernah menyakiti hatimu, secara sengaja ataupun tidak, secara ku menyedarinya ataupun tidak, harap ianya diampunkan, dari hujung rambut hingga ke hujung kaki. Sepuluh jari ku susun memohon maaf. Sekali lagi, selamat hari raya. Dalam kita bergembira ni, jangan lupa pada yang tiada.. Hulurkan mereka doamu.]
If i'm not tired, I will post on my raya trip tomorrow! Insya allah. Cause it is still fresh, like goreng pisang. Haha

Ikhlas dariku,
Rafiqah

2009-09-15T16:22:00.000-07:00

Hello. How do I start.
Well i didn't turn up for school today, due to some personal matters. [Sorry shida to keep you waiting at the bus stop, i forgot to text you earlier, that im not coming.]

And i want to share something nice that i'd just found.

Here it goes:

What is your definition of a serious relationship?
What is d most important element of a serious relationship?
Trust,loyalty,understanding,effort,respect....honesty.....
To love,to be loved n to be treated fairly..
Giving ur all n hoping to get d same response..

Love..

What is Love??

Everyone wants to be loved..n everyone wants to love..So the question is..
How much are u willing to sacrifice for love?
What if..d amount of sacrifice u put in is not worth aniting?
Are u willing to kip hurting urself just for Love?

But isn't Love supposed to be d most wonderful ting in Life?
With Love,dun u want to tell everyone dat ur in Love?
Isn't it supposed to make u feel on top of d world?
Make u feel like u can fly?
Makes u feel good n smile?

So wat if u stop smiling?What does dat mean?Does it mean aniting?

Dun u want to be appreciated?
Everyone deserves this kind of respect rite?

When you dun have things going on for you n there's nothing to look forward to..it kinda sucks eh?..It affects ur mood, ur mind goes on overdrive and youu feel down most of da time..Time to get a grip back on my life..I noe i can..

And yeah!!! Hari Raya is coming in 4 days time. And what sads most is that Ramadhan is going away. sobs~ I'm going to miss it tho, hoping it to get better every year.

sooooo~ selamat Hari Raya to everyone, to my friends, my fans, my manager. Lol, Heh. (:

Ok ima go now, to bed~!!!
Hhaha

2009-09-12T07:44:00.000-07:00

Well Hari Raya is so coming soon! So i'm gonna wish everybody A very happy Hari Raya!
May this Hari raya is a memorable one for u guys!!

Nenek, i will always miss you, hoping you were always here when Raya comes around. I miss you alot, even though i seriously can't remember the love you once showered me, Selamat Hari Raya..Same to you abah, imy soooo much.

imy.

Hah i looked so excited, but i don't know why, this year's raya isn't like fun for me.. I don't know why seriously. This ramadhan just made me a wiser person, a more matured human being on earth, made me realised whats worth it, what's wrong and right to do. And that humans just see the [WRONG-DOINGS] u did, but they just fails to see the [GOOD-THINGS] you do. That's life. All this just making me grow up maturely.How i wish everybody loved me sincerely, and accept the who i am. i know i'm bad, but i told my aunt this phrase, which kept her in silence,"memang semua orang pada mulanya jahat, tapi satu hari dia akan berubah, cuma sekarang belum masanya je." i said that to her. And i told mum," orang hanya nampak keburukkan kita.. dan kalau nak cakap tu, biar fikir dua kali," she agreed, but actually i said that TO her. so that she would realised it. [To my beloved family, im sorry if i had done bad all this while, it's my bad, i know. mum, i always shout at you, but actually i don't mean it. anak mana yang nak kurangajar dengan mak sendiri? But have you guys ever asked, why i change alot? what makes me change? huh??]
I know i changed alot. lagi2 sejak this fasting month. You guys think im perfect and that i have to do everything for you?! im just a human, don't rely everything on me. I just fOught with my 2nd bro this morning. he almost punched me, i swear. cause i shouted to mUM. i was so emotional today. Ngah jokingly armed a knife at me, so i said, "anu betol2 lah, mati lagi bagos, tak susahkan hidup orang lain" well i miss my mum, the time we were in nice condition, now, sikit2 mad at me, always in tensed! Im sorry i shouted to you guys,im sorry i disrespect. I wished i hadn't been born like this. Ngah said "asalla kau kurang ajar gini" which then made me noticed, everyone at home is hating me! i Don't meant anything to them. i deserved this.
So I'm gonna make sure this raya, im going to beg forgiveness from my mum, and perhaps everyone.Hope i could make it. Im just waiting for the time i will cHAnge into a better person. Ia akan mengambil masa yang lama, dan takda orang tau betapa susahnya nak buang sapa diri kau yang sebenar, sesuatu yang sudah sebati dgn diri aku. apa yang aku tahu, ada satu orang je yang faham susah payah aku ni, [ALLAH swt].

IMY.

Mimi, i lov you alot. But sorry i changed to the worst, you just won't understand why. To my two bro's, i love you guys alot! Keep that in mind always.

I just need you guys to love me! Thats all.

Have i ever asked for anything in sense of money, when i know you guys can't afford. Have i asked for anything?! Have you guys wonder what's my problem or how i feel? Have you guys ever gave me your support, when im so down, or when i need you guys around. it's you who's unsupportive! Never gave me hope, but scold me "stupid". Huh. I felt bad talking bout my fams here, but i need somewhere to let this out. Have you ever asked if i'm tired before you guys ask me to do this and that??
Think, just think hard.

Yesterday i went to bazaar gelyang with Aisyah. Was so fun but tiring coz we walked alot. There were so much baju kurung stall.But i did shopped alot. And i bought a necklace with my name for 15bucks. Haha i love it alot. and Aisyah have to break fast at my house. Haha i had a fun time. If i'd gone there with more people, it would be double the fun.

so i gtg, tc people!!

2009-08-31T08:23:00.000-07:00

Yay!!! my words are SUDDENLY back in it's box!! Let's celebrate!! Hhahaa

2009-08-31T07:42:00.000-07:00

Well today is Teacher's day. so, Happy teacher's day to all teachers. heh. school was fun, maybe was just the performance part. The ACES day workout, sucks. Seriously. Than we had normal lesson for two hours, and half an hour of Card making for our teacher, to show our kinda appreciation. lol. was boring. and many did'nt turn up today. So yeah, tomorrow will be a holiday, and i think i don't have to come to school on wednesday and on Friday too due to Mt examination which i was opt out. heh. Thursday will be facing maths and art exam, crap Art prep work has yet to be done. damn.

Anw the concert just now was indeed fun. Heh. I love the dance by my classmate. Thats all i guess, others were like ok, makes me smile. Haha.

today is the 10th day of Ramadan. And i was like just fasted 5 days. Crap fever and sore throat, it's killing me!! And the [FACT] that i have to suffer this month and that i have to wait till Raya, it's making me sicker!Why can't life just be easier, and you get as you wished. Hah!

Ouh i'm so loving this week, lots of hols for me. i can be peace at mind, at last!! I would just curl up in bed!! And not wake up! muhahahah!!~

Wah AUGUST got many people celebrating their birthdays HaH. My fam already has 3. my friens has 3 and 2more that i know, alot. Haha august like typical. Heh.

So today i was coughing to my grave, sorethroat and my voice was like i just broke my voice, the pitch was funny, lol, and i went home and drank a bottle of PLAINWATER!! and due to some VR!!

Haha sooooo IM just counting days TO after [HARI RAYA]!! I need to go!!

~Life still predicted to go on,obviously, precisely and exactly, Rafiqah!!

2009-08-26T03:03:00.000-07:00

I was randomly viewing my linked friends. I was at my cousin's blog, Arif, and i saw something. He wrote this about me.

[oh and today the secondary fours received their O level MT results!
I'm so Happy for my cousin who got an A2.. She liked called her mom and cried after she saw her results.. Her mom was in Hospital you know. Then today,her mom got discharged from the Hospital..She must be really really happy seh!!]

And when i read this, i was in tears. Thx Arif,
yup i was really2 happy as i managed to set a mile on my beloved mum's face despite being sick..

2009-08-26T01:52:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i was at home 24/7. I had high fever and a bad cough+sorethroat and flu, with a degree off 38.8 deg cel. But i still turned up to school today to take my Chemistry Prelim paper. OMG, and tomorrow's paper is Maths and Biology. I almost doze off while doing chem just now, and i kept coughing like an idiot. And i can't fast for yesterday and tomorrow!!! arghh!
And what a day, i fall yesterday. what a sight to see. lol. i was climbing up the stairs at Tamp 201 and i fall. so i quickly got up and walk, and i swear i wasn't turning to see if someone was looking. It was so embarrasing. But i laughed. Haha

As promised hehe., here's the pics..

Heh. Arif and Me.

What a sight!! two sick sisters, got warded together. And we celebrated!!

Us again!! weeee!~

Haha thats me busy with my phone.

I loved this one, snapped by Mohd Hairi.

Actually we did enjoy feeding the fishes with potato chips. lol

The two telephetic sisters, one sick, the other one gets sick too. Heh coz i think they are really close to one another.

My sick mum and my brother, Helmi.

My second mum. heh i love her so much :D

Now my fever has cooled down. I'm left being hurt by coughing and flu. Haha Hopefully i could start back with fasting tomorrow.

So i have to go to study now. c ya! tc!!

Rafiqah

2009-08-23T00:43:00.000-07:00

Today is the second day of the Fasting month, Ramadan. Haha well, but people just kept testing my temper, while i know, i have to bear this, be patience. One day i'm going to Bazaar Geylang ah. haha i want to shop2..Haha. Sape nak ikot?? Nak ready for RAYA..lol. i want buy watch, buy perfume, buy kebab, buy burger, buy carpet, buy baju, buy beg, that's for sale there!!! haha (That's alot!!!)

hehe. so, i gtg. rushing to do something. Ima post our pic at the hospital, that's i once told, tomorrow. coz today my brother brought his cam along ahhh. heh. And im down with headache.lol.. And arghhh!! tomorrow school!! shit,
Fasting + School = "wreckless and dying" lol.
nahhh actually, fasting shouldn't be any barriers to do things you always do.. haha

so haha, HAPPY FASTING PEOPLE!!! AND HAPPY BUKA PUASA IN 3HOURS TIME, AND HAPPY COUNTING DOWN TO RAYA!!! HAHA.

SIGNING OFF,
YOURs TRULY ONE AND ONLY,
MISS STALKER,
rafiqah.

2009-08-21T07:07:00.000-07:00

Well, my mum and aunt just recovered and just got discharged from the hospital. On the first day, i rally cried till i drop, one day i'll upload the picture of my swollen eyes. haha Cause i really thaught it was my fault that my mum got sick.

Actually, my aunt got hospitallised on Thursday. on Thursday, after school, i asked mum to tag along to visit my aunt, but she said she's not feeling well. but i insisted, i kinda not belief her and said, 'action ah u..' well i take it as a joke. than she wanted to go to the nearest clinic. but a few minutes later, she said that she can't even walk, and that her whole body is shivering. so my brother called for an ambulance. and that i realised that she was really2 sick.

so my atok and i took a cab to the hospital, in the cab, i was like crying only, as the ambulance sounds it's sirence just behind our cab. Even the taxi driver was like looking at me and was driving fast as i was crying muhahaha. than we waited. i was alone at the lift lobby, crying alone, and that everybody was like looking at me. even the trainee at the entrance who has to check our temperature, was like hugging me as my temp was high. one pf them tot i cried as my degree was high. lol. than i told her that actually my mum was in the emergency area, than all of them hugh me, awww how sweet. haha. so does my neighbour, she asked me what happened, i failed to replied her, but cry instead, and they hugged me!! lol.

so that night, my mum got settled down and sent to her ward, i came to her side, kneel down, and hold her hand tight. thanks for the masked, that i can cover my mouth while i was crying. than she said, "ika tak percaya kan mama sakit??" than i can't say anything that i cried, guess wat?? so does my brothers.. haha they cried too. haha so sweet. soo this goes on for almost 5-6 days, and i have to go back to the hospital back and fro. i almost gave up, coz i was so tired, but for the sake of my mum, i perseveared.haha.

now that she recovered fully. many people came to visit her. was fun tho. even her friend got hospitalised too. haha. all this moment just got my family get back together and came closer. haha. actually there's more stories, but these are the simplified ones. haha

we did took some pics. i'll update soon. haha

sooo.. tomorrow, all muslims will be fasting, so yeaa, happy Ramadhan to all muslims..!! haha that was fast. i felt that the past hari raya was like just a few months away, and that now it's coming again.

and ouh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIMI!!! dah 27 seyyy. kawin ahh cepat..lol... ILY!!!
as i returned from school, to ngah house, they were like ordering KFC'S..haha lol. i presented him specially, a bangle. haha and he like it, yea..(:

And ouh, mother tongue O level result was just released on wednesday, 190809. haha and thanks god, i got A2. but i was sad, as i was hoping for an A1. haha so after i got the result, as promised, i only wanted this special person to kow it first, and so i did, i called my mum first. i already cried. coz i was too happy. haha i bet she was happy too. haha i shared it to some of my frens, yat and hajar, many more, my cussies,my bros, my fams, they all said congrats. lol

AAAAAAAAAANNNNNNDDDDD, congrats to NABILAH and SAKINAH too for scoring an A2 also!!! haha
to the others, you guys have another chance, and that who knows, you guys could do better than us... hehe

for one week, my mum got hospitalised, i stayed at my aunt house, HAPPILY!!! muhaha well, i really enjoyed..muhahaha!!!!:D
now i'm at home, and it's kinda bored. haha real bored. i'm missing my second house, terribly ah... shit!! god.. control my feelings please.. i have to wait till after raya to see [IT] again.hahaha

In the end, IMY, badly..
~Raf

2009-08-14T17:47:00.000-07:00

I'll be dead from blogging maybe for days. I'm in need to recompose myself. I'm sick deep inside. I need to go.
FYI, my families are in the Hospital. Even my beloved mum, and my aunt,were hospitallised.. I'm gonna be busy this few days. will be rite back.

~sadly signing off,
Rafiqah

p/s:I'll be at the hospital probably 24/7. so anyone coming, i'll be at the Changi Hospital. Take care people...Do text me for enquiries, no calls pls, my pp8 rocks!! heh.

2009-08-07T02:52:00.000-07:00

anyways, anyways, anyways, Happy birthday NABILAH!!!!! cehh 16 yeaaa? haha
im 16 1 month old today..haha and happy belated bday to widad..!!! sorry i didn't get to wish you... love you guys!!!

2009-08-07T02:26:00.000-07:00

My second brother with a big fish he caught with my uncle a few years back..

Mi,IMY, come home please.. he's currently staying at my aunts house...
his birthday coming soon, yay!!!

anw it's been long that i'm away. and im finally back. like i've said, i need time to recompose. im sick. yeaa sick.
it has been so hard for me, to bear my sickness. it all started with an ulcer. a big one, in my mouth(duhh!!), than you know the veins are all connected, that gain me a very bad toothache, grrr!!. than my head felt very2 heavy and hot.

And today's national day celebration!!! and yeaa, everyone's in red. school was fun tho, i was sick and was not in the mood!! haha pity those guys got scolded by MR.Hafiz for not wearing red.. haha than in school we had the reflection moment and took photograph with our classmates, and off to the hall for the DON'T FORGET THE LYRICS CONTEST, with 4E5 as the champ.. lol. school was preety much fun!! i love the singing part of the national day, and the part the bands play for us a special song, i love it alot.. hahas. than we got souvenior, a file.. yup, it's called a file. haha lol. actually while ini the hall for the contest, my mind wasn't really there. it was away. far2 away. i miss national celebration in 2008. which is last year, and the time we played the balls. haha was so fun, i miss them!!!

anyways, earlier in the morning, i followed mum and my uncles, and get on with his bus to fetch tampines primatry school childrens.. well all the kids were wearing red!! how sweet.. than i took the oppurtunity to take their photos, especially my favourite pri2 boy, Thaqif!!! very cute.. than while going around the street in the bus, there was alot of people wearing red.. how supporting Singaporeans are!! I'm so propud to be a SINGAPOREAN!!! yeaaaa!!! they are soo patriotic!!!
it makes me feel so good..

anw yesterday before our SS examination, our principal adressed us in the hall(only the sec 4s.) i don't know about what coz i was not listening. than like every year they like show contributions and should i saw appreciation for teh sec4s cos we're leaving. they were showing powerpoint slides of our photos.. and the graduation songs, i almost cried.. haha damn sad seyy, and that one part it was my picture!! how funny and how weird!! haha it was the one on the carnival day, and i was standing by raimy's parrot with atiqah. haha it was very sad.. i just said a few days ago, on why tamp sec didn't do that for us this year, but holla!! i got to see it. haha!!

aite. a long sick post by me.. i got to switch off now, off to shops to buy foods for my fams to break fast(: (gosh, hope i recover fast, my head is so heavy, i'm waiting for the time to break fast, coz i need medicines for my bad headache!!!)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
BYE2 TAKE CARE, imy ALWAYS!!!! my one and only, PG!! i've tried to move on, but i noticed something, how much i tried, i just failed to do so, missing you got more and more.

2009-07-27T05:08:00.000-07:00

Today's school was awesome. Especially P.E for the first period. hahas. we played soccer a usual.. haha we learned to dribble, which i couldn't do that much, and we try to strike a goal. it was so much fun for Hairi to be our goal keeper. it was sudden that 3 people, talked/compliment my eyes today. lol. nurul aindayana ssid" mata lawa.. colour keperr... hot hot!! haha".. jacq said" nice sia ur eye colour"
haha and the new PE teacher did too!! i was dribling the ball along some cones when i missed some. AS I WAS DRIBBLING, HE WAS RUNNING BY MY SIDE, SUPPORTING ME, BUT I MISSED SOME THO.. he kept saying "you're doing well, you can do it, it's just that your eye colour.. because of that you can't see the cones..."
haha lol.
Maths was bored and terrible!! i was soo panicked as i did not brioing a single thing for maths lesson!! haha And now im soo busy eith art! so does everybody!!
well i did not attend school on friday as all my family members got sick. mum with the accident, pity her.. tkcr k ma.. but despite that, on friday, we went to my aunts house coz she's sick too. haha And i saw you, atlast!!~imy..

If a man wants you,
nothing can keep him away,
if he doesn't wants you,
nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour, girls
allow your spirits to save you from heartaches...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It was a word that I often hear so much
Along the lines that I couldn't find

I close my eyes so hard
Hoping that you will appear
In front of me upon our promised place,
My Patience growing thin not like before..

Should I wait For you to jump in
Should I wait For you to kiss me
Should I wait a month or year for you, to long for
Making myself wait as I want to see you..

Sometimes I look all over the place
Knowing what has happened to me to recover
or something could have happened to you.
My worries lays only on you..

Watching tv and listening to songs at night
Singing them as I write...
I'm feeling so lonely
as there's no you by my side..

Should I wait For you to jump in
Should I wait For you to kiss me
Should I wait a month or year for you, to long for
Making myself wait as I want to see you..

From long to short distance
It doesn't bother nor matter at me
I will give you all my honesty
My trust and sincerity..

The courage that burns in me
It's just for you, so sweetly
He could be, you could be, nor he could be..

I'll wait..
I'll wait for as long as I really can
Even if my time is ending soon
And that i don't have the chance..

Should I
Wait so much that I can't stand it now..
Should I..
Wait to keep myself strong that I'm thinking very wrong
Should I..
Wait for someone to enter my world of dreams, when now i'm failing.
I'm struggling, I'm dying..

[Now, I manage to see you from far..., fails to see you with eye affair.. whispering to you (ILY) from up there.. hoping you'll hear it thru the air. and that you'll turn and and look up, and say, "how the hell could i hear you, when you're up there?"
within the moments, i'll reply "coz you weren't hearing thru your ear, you were hearing from your heart, my dear...]"

~ missing you deeply,
Rafiqah..

2009-07-26T07:38:00.000-07:00

Haha i watched Harry potter- the half blood prince. It was awesome to me, not like what others mentioned. It was fun. Gosh i really love the potions that they made or that they could buy. If only they're available here, would be lotta fun, aren't they!! Haha especially love potions.. lols. they're awesome!! fabulous!! And i really want try out their sports, the game that they play with the broom stick, i don't know what's its called though. i love that!! If only those fantasy world is reality here.. lol.. The actors had all grown up!! so cute.. EMA WATSON has grown up HOT-ly. hahas.. she's preety, my god!! and that white hair guy(i always forget his name), very hot2.. (: anw i would rate the show 7/10 (: haha

i'm tired now. haha maybe i'll update soon on: shida edited for me on a piece of paper, the song: kantoi-zee avie. she edited it to the story of my life. i'll write down those fuuny lyrics one day. haha=)

my life sucks totally now. i've lost myself. i don't know where i'm now. i'm lost, deep in the woods. losing you makes me feel like loosing my life, my everything. you're my everyday!!

[I NEED HUGHS!!!!]

ANYWAYS.. i would like to say thanks to all my friends for always being here for me when i need you guys.. u guys lend me a shoulder for me to share my sadness im going through now.. [and to my that special fren(my kekasih separuh masa..), thanks for always being there for me.. i'm sorry if i betrayed you all this while, when i know i shouldn't...you're a true friend. ]

here's my answer to u shida(well i know u can't read this at this moment):
.if my friends were to die before me, of course i'll cry.. ( now i wonder if my friends are going to cry after my dead body??)
.do i love my friends? of course i love them.

~ And Shida, i forgave you from the bottom of my heart. i'll just say it here coz you know i can't say it to you front to front, i can't coz i'll cry before i could even say a single word!!. one day you'll read it here(well i know nabilah's gonna tell you this, before you could read it yourself).. let me tell you this, all this while we had the fight, i really feel like dying. you made me really feel bad, and that i totally sucks. I really felt miserable, useless, like a piece of leave lying around pricelessly.. cause i can't life without my true frens around me.. Now i'm still struggling to get use to you guys back, after the fight. and that i still can't forget it back, the time you hurt me, u threw rubbish at me, those harsh words u spill on me, the words on the wall that i have to face everday in school, the time u made me loose all my friends, im lonely!!!! haha but now it's all over, i forgave you my dear... I'm still trying my best to forget all that eventhough it's still haunting me. i belief that u understands that i need a longer time to get use to u guys as usual coz the things i'd gone thru almost killed me!.. i'm tryna forget now..
Now let's begin a new!! everybody's my friend!!

And 2 days ago, 240709, is my dad's bday. nahh my late father. as in my dad- dad that had passed away. well im happy mum didn't re-married. it's his bday. abah, i know you couldn't even get the chance to read this message i made specially for you even if it gets to the end of my life, but i just want you to know that i love you so much: sepenuh2 hati ikah, akan ku sayangi mu sepanjang umurku, sehingga akhir hayatku, abah. if you're here by my side, i'm sure my life is way diff from now.. i never had the chance to ever wish you, nor you wishing me on my bday.. if only you hadn't leave earlier abah, cause i need you by my side all this while i'm growing up.. i miss you dad, deeply. ~imy, your one and only daughter, RAFIQAH..
(happy bday to aunty dewi too..)

Aite rafiqah got to go now, i'm tired, i need alot of time to rest my soul.. im very3 wrestless... i need rests~~~~ i'd been sick of crying and crying and crying.. my eyes had been swollen and my pools had dried, my eye bags getting heavier.. I'm moving on!! i think i can!! with persevearance, i sure can!! belief in yourself, rafiqah!! yeah. tomorrow's P.E and we're playing soccer!! yeah..
aite. till here, bb
(P/S: ramadhan, da' fasting month is coming soon, gosh, i haven't paid the past days yet..And malay O' level result is coming soon!! yeah i have 0% confident of scoring an A grade !!)